Day -kinda- One

I feel that I have been made into a good person by today. It's just the feeling where I feel I wanna focus on what's important, it's already been too long that my studies have been neglected. I don't know what's wrong but I didn't improve as much as I'd liked. And now there are no more chances, which hurts.
Hi X, do you remember the time where we sat at a random Vivocity bench, talking about ourselves and having complexes and insecurities (and it really meant a lot) tied with a good packet of chips. Our conversations have totally changed now, like in a good way- I feel more driven to take charge of my own future and I just really hope whatever we aim towards works out. I feel so inundated with studies; maybe because of As being more rigorous than Os I'm glad reality finally slaps me for being foolishly in denial. I firmly label today as No Regrets day. Today will *finally* be that push to take me fwd, I pray, and it'll be the opening of greater, happier days that I must live with no regrets. Future days that will not be peppered with oh man I could have done more but didn't. Okay X, ☀ couldn't ask for a better monkeyoat. Thank you so much.

"Hey can I see your notebook?"
"*rambles smth*... No but I can let you see the first page"
"Well I got something to add to your collection"

HEHE XY YOU'RE TOO SNEAKY LUH OMG :')

Biscuit Breakers

Thx awsm kids. :-) Enjoyed the company today and love the weather. Post prelims weather is off to a good start, definitely.
Had four waffles of the exact replica and a massive volcano of a waffle monster on the table. And Jodi's lovable expressions haha.
And flashback to the time last year (was it?) whr we had Udders in this chilly weather talking about us talking in 50 years' time (I think?). I love the idea of a time capsule- or just one of those comparisons betw past and present; it just feels like you conquered time which is a tough feat.
Happy end of prelims. I feel like I'm in the eye of the storm now where it seems fleetingly blissful. I am reluctant to move from this moment.

Posted 21 Sept

Orchard and talks.

And if I lost the map
If I lost it all
I fell into the trap
Then she goes

When you're tired of waiting so you just
Find that you never had to stop
Come on baby, don't let it break your heart
☁☁☁✌☁☁☁


Aye, better to have loved than to have not loved at all, no? Thanks Webabx these two days would have been mad boring and stressful w/o you around.

Saturday was good, supported Vik & Rach for their match at Lakeside; thanks to everyone who wished heehee you guys are sweetest, and today today, at Orchard which was good stuff since I haven't stepped into Orchard for months on end- feeling accomplished like maybe I'm on the right track somehow!! Hopefully, maybe. Well, we haven't been playing for months so we kinda got thrashed? At least we tried heh (major accomplishment, sin!!!) BUT DAYUM THOSE LADIES!! Rly respect man haha maybe I will adopt the American accent, grow old in America, come back to Singapore so I can join the American Club and play until my bones can take no more.

Anyway probably will insert one of those trademark chunk of words here that I do!!! Soon. And why only a few more mths til As?!? Time is mad. Will try to reduce posting freq until it ends yup pulling out the big guns man.

Meeting z boobxz later I hope Jo is good and not tired haha I'm actually excited cuz idk when was the last time we met

Maybe I am actually content w my life. I hope this goes on for a long long time. Not worth having time to be your plane's autopilot, have to drive it yourself. And carve the precious seconds into diamonds ✈

/updated
Round of applause for God for bringing me a great day today + mum's happy mood heh + tons of laughter on the way back home like it always was

Smiling but we're close to tears.

Hello, it's me again; I'm kinda wishing this would hurry up and be sold in stores now although it'd pretty much be instax-like, but how cool would it be to carry these arnd and filter using the iPhone AND THEN THE PIX GET PRINTED FOR KEEPSAKES in all it's analog glory oh my. Going picture hunting in sg would be amazeballs and so would going globe trekking arnd the world w it.
I realise (pretty much been doing a lot of this lately;) that I make my own problems. It does happen it really really does. My problems are pretty dumb actually, I can imagine laughing about it in about fifty years time....? Dayum we rly got a lot of time to live on this planet eh heh ok touch touch lots of wood. So it kinda stems from being needy, & it's pretty pathetic but I still do it anwzzz haha sheetzx.
Had things sort of in perspective today, rly thankful for Jordan for those words. I must try my best to hold them fiercely right up to judgement day// month and not wander off my path. Sigh, and thank my family too, for keeping my surroundings safe and well amidst the occasional sibling bickering which I rly hate to hear and try my best to avoid.

One last paper and maybe I can try to do smth about nothing. Oh, and the tennis matches too hahah I still think it's madly impulsive and wacked plus it's at twooooo in the afternoon. Sinhui if you're reading this, I really don't know why we do this :'( I want to put on the masks that make you look thiefy that they wear nowadays on china beaches argh
On the bright side not literally (☀☀☀!!!), I guess we really do need some vita d ... This period is too painful to do anything like running and eating is my substitution and it makes life even more painful. { Ok I'll never be sad anymore, this is 2 fing am and nth can command my emotions to feel negative things.
Last burst of fire, like my dad alw says hahah o m g sadly I'm following the Voice and I can see why ovaries explode for Adam Levine alr. Shake me & shout to me to set my priorities straight!!!!

Hehe glee

Been following with The Glee Project but I had to check the spoilers and....... Disappointment hahah it was
*spoiler ahead*

Blake, but honestly there were just so much other unique people on board and they all took the cut. It's quite emotional this whole thing haha maybe too holed up but yeah. Prior to my knowing the results I thought that Glee was pretty much about celebrating differences? Though the writers have a point about weaving the character into the storyline and Blake has the better chance

Aaaahah okay happy birthday to chow Zhi hui Nai iyn Huii & chia Lingyi!!!!! So many leaders aw man ✌✌✌

And finally, a lil sliver of light at the end of the tunnel. And banmian w the class girls wanted to type ramen heh & planning post prelims cancerous journey would have to wait oh manz

By Paulo Coelho

Time to make this the 3 month long motto from now on yeah.
Two more days only two more (effectively speaking) days
((more muscle emoji))

Past.

Reading lecture notes are good, in a way, I can look at all the past doodles and I realise I never do any of them hehe ☀☀☀
There are like drawings of boobs and hearts and Pokemon and proclamations of love to very.... Endearing people. And just mostly boobs sigh