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watched jamie's food revolution; jamie oliver's plight to radically alter the way americans get their nutrition. so amazingly inspiring. i don't know- is it personal choice of each american individual that has landed them in a diabetic epidemic or their culture of food + propensity to magnify their food to gargantuan proportions all the time?
sometimes i feel a little american within myself. like an inability to control what i eat. i've managed, i think, to properly straighten myself out (after being amazed at the ge women's run late this year)
this topic of food and the human relationship with food interests me to no end. there is a great neurological factor at play here, that makes people desire to consume high-caloric foods for a transient moment's satisfaction, it's real bc i felt it.
then moving on to the great control tower that is the brain of the homosapien. (and this is a totally different topic but i've really been thinking this through a lot)
self-worth. i have taken this long to realize that great self-worth comes when you yourself decide that you are worth more than you thought you were. you decide whether you want to take care of yourself better or not- splurge on better quality foods for your own well-being, don't ingest poisonous synthetic food with ingredients your 5-year-old self cannot understand (thx jamie oliver), sleep earlier sleep better, make it a point to wake up in time for the sunset- or more preferably, be at the beach just for it. make yourself satisfied and don't do things just for the sake of others. be selfish sometimes b/c sometimes it is for the better. it really is true that if you have more self-worth, you have greater power to positively affect the others around ya.
the root of all these wonderful things; the mind.
it is also a great agent for change in any situation and circumstance. set your mind to change the status quo and let your body follow it.
i'm not sure how i was last time. i remember i was acutely self-conscious of what i did because i feared, ever so often, that my actions would garner dissatisfaction from others around me. if only i knew how to hold my ground. if only i wasn't too harsh on myself on needing to please other people. if i was less passive i think my jc life would be crazy different haaa.

dailies of my life circa '07

i think that was my entire adolescent life. (emotionally in isolation) i finally can say today that i am not self-conscious of this moment anymore!!! embracing this horrible period of mine (2007 - 2011 probz) as it has shaped me into who i am n will be in future. 

can't change it anymore so credit it for making you who you are on this very day.

If you cannot be happy for yourself then others cannot be happy for you.
This is an often overlooked statement. I think the gist of it is that you control feelings of what you think of yourself. And what you think that others think of you is a reflection of what you think of yourself. The mind is so powerful and how true that if you're happy, the universe will conspire to bring you continual happiness. If you're sad and insecure, then everyone will just seem to go against you.
Been reading self-help books like Food: The Good Girls' Drug and the Craving Cure. All the fruits if a good library search.
If what one needs is to be accepted in life and love, then self acceptance has to be the first step in accomplishing that.
Just food for thought.

On a happy note - 2 lessons of yoga today after work. Feeling quite proud of this newfangled idea of my doing yoga. I always thought it'll be nothing much since half of the time it's breathing and dozing off on the sweaty mat. However it helps in curing (or curbing) the intense bingeing desires!!! Hopefully it works on me cuz my brain usually outwits my actions if that makes sense.