health post #one

never been happier with my fitness progress this year /ever/ but here it is!!!!! today!!
ran w upper tracky who lives just opp tj and ran the park connector x 4 without really stopping and that is already an accomplishment in itself bc i usually take fifty-one minutes and mull over the pain in my joints/ shins and wat-not, but w a friend,
you get really good pacing b/c it's consistent and at a faster speed than personal runs
it's stressful but in a good way- feel super paiseh if i run too slow and muck up the pacing for friend (situation alw like this for jodi and i too)
and the whole no-binge before run thing rly works!!!!! i think i am most happy about this b/c i always 'fuel up' bfr a run - stuffing my cheeks full on LOADS of food, good and bad until sometimes i even forget how to breathe as i am consuming excessively yucks i disgust myself
BUT WITH A PENGYOU it's so different!!!! ate really mildly and ran after that. i think the food in my belly will cause me stitches and other pains, whereas if there is no food, then my system is ok!! contrary to my belief that i will faint from hunger if i run bfr loading up on food + procrastinating and such.
really need to continue with this schedule and keep the satisfaction levels up. can't rly afford to keep feeling like a shiz and going in infinite circles of self-pity. the post-exercise feeling is super encouraging (and that is how i will psycho myself until forever)
FINGERS CROSSED

and hi on sunday i went w my momma to orchard for i think the very first time as a mom/daughter pair for the uk uni fair which is meatballs and by meatballs i mean not very informative. then to old canyon where i finally treated and it feels gooooood yet super bad bc i should do it more often.
then fightingforces!! got tons of stuff so thanks for walking around shopping haven with me
u_u  blissful face of having good buys.
p.s: editors market is gonna have to open its doors to me again because i'm betting on that shop to sell me good deals!!! omg grab all the friends and let's go buy clothes there. i'm in love w their concept (the more you buy the cheaper it gets for each item)
p.s.s: must remove cheapo spirit hehehehe

--- i think right now it's just the endorphins acting up ---

can't wait for uss darn

my 2012.

back when everything was ~~alright~~

i mean, not the depicted event, but

according to facebook, this was one of my events.

p.s.: i haven't told my parents about this yet. they didn't ask, so i probably won't damage this mindset of theirs. i think they think i lost it. i don't know whether brutally damaging my camera via death by gravity or stupidly replacing it is better though.......

i want to special mention:

• brenda, 
• deonn, 
• jolene,
• paige, 
• xin yun, 
• jaspex, 
• hazel, 
• jes, 
• weeps. 

omg my mind ain't functioning much, but yea at the top of my fingers. what's rebecca's 2012 without them. (coincidentally, or not, my stupid status is commented by them hohoho.

of course there's the mad class 16/11 wherein we were the target of many teachers- they eyed us like hawks because we were forever below expectations (ok econs was... explainable and forgivable for us) ((on another note, me and chem have absolutely zero chemistry ha ha ha. always has been though ew)) uuuurgh screw this maybe nightmares do come true. but but then i will always remember joy's foreverinhappiness spirit, charmay's high intelligence which became the saving grace of all the grades, buying 5 bowls of japanese rice during breaks, the occasional missing of abi's absence, interceptions during tutorials- sometimes unwanted, waking up jasmine goon jie min, loks' -1 pun making, bitching about ms lai even in class oops, CLY phase, jodi's award-winning punctuality, mr fazli's standard procedure in going through test results (the sighing, the statistics, the 'you could've gotten this question(s) correct' speech), and the most importantly; learning. (karma just be nice please)

i will try not to remember the hideous shade of green that reeks from the uniform.

i always chose to think of 2012 as the worst year of my life, i mean, isn't that what ms ho said the other time, that j2 is going to be the worst year of our lives? it's not really a 'people' year, this 2012. it's more of a time for self-discovery, self-motivated, self-fish. everything self year. i think that's when i kind of lost god which i had held close all the while. until the period when the exams had gotten heavy, ironically. i'm glad though, that i've sorta found my drive back, in general. and how the social networking shiz and self-inflicted societal pressure had inundated me back in secondary school; if only i hadn't given in, maybe i would have been much better off. then again, i wouldn't have unearthed all these friendships throughout the journey in the tunnels called temasek. (had this epiphany when i was running recently)

music: 

• mylo xyloto (coldplay)
• one song by hillsong- hosanna; (in which i had cried the first time listening to it, i think i was stressed by smth???)
• florence + the machine
• adele
• halcyon (ellie goulding) ((only more recently))

things that kept me going when i was @ hell on earth:

• the drive that usually comes in whenever i'm running with the music on, but the actual effect to carry out my motivations has a 10-day-lag effect. fml. but new years resolution!!!!
• photo in sec 4 (right) + words, if not it'd just be kinda creepy HAHAHA
• essence of chicken (inaccurate advertising much!!) + handmade lunch by a family member but it's always kinda reassuring of my mum
• spontaneous unexpected letters
• whatsapp group wherein the group name changes daily cuz must track days to post a lvl freedom yay look where we are now! (avenue for sanity, or maybe insanity)
• the cliched post a promises
• just the stuff on the table ie motivational calendar
• etc~

resolutions

• trust god
• not to cry during a level results release (stupid habit)
• family 
• focused
• stop excessive thinking
• do something w this privileged life
• sleep bfr 12 while i can
• reduce fbtwitterinstagram
• frugal
• homemade meals
• rmb to watch thg in 2014
• reduce effect of others' actions on my self-worth
• stop having unattainably high self-worth
• no assumptions
• eye contact
• wear contacts/ heh mebbe not.

why do i even bother doing this crud at 2 am.

~

to answer this rhetoric q using point form

• habit
• eat junk food w/o judgemental eyes
• blog tradition
• stuff to do in daylight

2012 events

• orientation with og12, ogl sleepover hahahaha shucks i'm still q embarrassed over the choice of movies zomg
• open house cheerleading w pex new member
• paige dropping over at tj / balloons
• sleepover at brenz'!!! first time heh momentous occasion
• tuition at boogz
• nationals w the tennis girls.
• exams aren't considered events
• prom/ 1am macs
• nyny
• 1611 session round 2

ok future me should thank current me

photo of the year: (better than gangnam style)
love it that i'd purposely call jes so i can see the picture
i swear jas laughed for more than 10 secs too hehehe

previously, my year end post looked like thissssss.

Iced tea and bench talks.

They're a bunch I will never forget and can always laugh with
Polaroids boost happiness levels by a dozen.
Lots more to life but this is all, ^^ pretty day today!!
And shout out to Humujayjay my favourite ever whatsapp group where epic stuff happens and semi secrets get let out.