the beach is a 5c4ry kind of g00d.

 

hello,

missed this space a lot, haven't been round here much, but

i think life so far has been swell. keeping positive really works wonders.

time 11.35 pm

i think the two minute anti-procrastination trick is holding up for me pretty well. and
ever since I've started thinking happier, things just fall into place much easier, I mean:

• if you look at it the positive way, i've been able to eat something sinful and not beat myself up about it vis a vis feeling like crap and stressing out over it and hence leading to more bingeing tendencies.
• i think the way we eat really reflects how we are as a person. the more you love yourself, the more you want to fuel yourself w/ the good stuff, the more the bad stuff appeals less and less for you- been seeing this all over fitblrs and I've finally seen the light too!!! (though this i've got to work on)
• but giving myself some slack has done good things for me. in fact, i dare say I've been eating better and it's definitely looking to be a good way of life for the future.
• while i was on my run, thinking about the future (ie when should i bathe when i return/ should i have more food to eat/ what can i blog about) makes me stressed up and slowed down my pace while focusing on my breathing and the goal definitely made the time pass faster. the distance also seemed shorter!! rly hoping for the 15km run by 15th oct goal to be a reality.
• i don't rly dig the underground tunnel to the beach bc it has a dreary haunted vibe to it and I feel claustrophobic in there but --- the beach!!!!!! fresh air, the wind, the clearly demarcated paths for cyclists and joggers..... definitely worth it guys. 
• p.s i was also afraid of kidnappers hiding out behind the secluded trees / somali pirates who arrive here by boat n do stuff but --- the beach.
• also cannot be more grateful to blogilates. a few months back I sucked and was in a srsly pathetic state my knees were wobbly during those thigh lifts, I paused the videos to roll around and cry a bit at this hard-core intensity, when she eight more I did four...... and now it's an accomplish I must recognize bc it's finally here, determination delivered to my doorstep. finding comfort in the discomfort. the focusing on the breathing and posture.

this post is a lot more than the two-minute rule,
but if I ever falter when i'm away, i think this is the post i want to rmb so that i can get back on my feet and still feel ok w it.

tl;dr-
it's a happy journey!!!!
i should never be too hard on myself- let minor slips happen bc life is too short to go into another bingeing episode
celebrate and cherish achievements bc no one else can do it for you
do things one at a time. think about things one at a time.

plop plop thoughts

think about it. your future self won't think back on the excuses you used for yourself, rather what you have done with your life. life cannot be just built on excuses like

"maybe i'll run later" *proceeds to not running*

"maybe i'll eat healthy"

*proceeds to making a homemade concoction of brownies and ice cream*- guys the biggest joke is that i did a 12k and also, the brownies thing. but nope i won't beat myself over it. i'm drinking more water now though. and um, yeah 

got my plan set out for today. developing some photos and possibly buying one roll of films to use.

right now i'm going to sleep u_u

the 2 minute rule

going to incorporate it into my daily life now. simple tasks like washing bowls and not leaving it in the sink, clearing the drain holes, making tea, rolling out the yoga mat for a self-promised yoga session- i hesitate to do them and often end up putting it off
which leaves me stressed out
then i'd have to find another appropriate time to do it.

the point is if you can do it within two minutes, just do it now &
the feeling of relief of not procrastinating on it makes life seem a little bit better.

also downloaded 'lift' which makes keeping to habits a whole lot easier ☺

really happy w my find on the app store; hope it can keep my life on track and stress-free 

just a lot of pent up things

but hey what can go wrong w a mom who loves you just thr way you re right i mean.
so happy that abi tried out insanty workout n pardon the misspellings using the tab~ ⊙¤⊙
btw i happen to ttly swear on blogilates. whenever days go bad, rolling out my mat for blogilates does the trick. even when i ate 16 squarss of white chocolate for breakfast today n kinder bueno. no shame in admitting fine i put this on myself
ikr wtfsssss just screwing up the no-dairy deal just frustrates me but prior to this chocolate seems like the only soltn to soothe my ravaged soul and i was upset about ytd n my meal plan took a slight stumble

run: aim to hit 16 by mid oct. i choose to believe that it is possible. 21k will be possible
i will be strong abt this and not stressed neither will i break down abt eating heathly bc that mentality is for chumps. i will hold my ground n do what js best for myself and also read my anat books briefly. u_u

children's day at pathlight.

(wasnt able to sit w my class)

campus 1 is totally decked up for the 10th year anniversary- the kids don't know it, but they are so fortunate to be studying in that wonderful school where all the amenities are close to pristine. the façade of sacps was a tiny rough pebble compared to the sculpted stone that is pl.
loved seeing sandalwood and i always love their warmth they exude whenever i see them. so happy that psle is but a thing of the past and they'll be moving up because they are the most capable bunch i know.
did balloon sculpting which is my secret fear just like ms sara's. and i burst a balloon while trying to squeak it into shape. i didn't know who was more terrified; the kids or i.

ericca brought home apple crumble which tastes amazeballs. brought me back to my home econs days + another project to look fwd too

today idk- i felt kind of defeated..... like i've never rly felt this excruciating emotional weariness
no words.
all this is going to be
but a thing of the past too. and what matters is right now
nth should be anchoring me to the depths of dark things.
suppression sucks and i
didn't manage a run today/ i will take that in stride.

-mid week happy-

 

someone ^ got her new instax

met long-time friend since pubescent timez: chen xy abigail, at
antoinette located at
30 penhas road, off lavender mrt station.
i got lost and was late so abi had to walk around ntuc.
really glad she's doing more than fine and being comfortable at where she is right now in life. a prime example of rocketing out from the dense lifeless undergrowth aka tj into glory and success.

ok the metaphor was dumb...... but yes.
we visited a gem of hidden outlet treasures; anchorpoint!!! this is top secret guys srsly. i was silently rejoicing at the amount of outlet shops there are in that seemingly lifeless place.

our hours were spent soaking up marvellous discounted items from typo. and then a comforting ikea meal of hotdogs ice-cream and tea.

was pleasantly surprised w/ these eye-catching sweets and japanese goodies blows my socks off anytime. thankew abs.

beyond this lies some running progress.