going raw

theres a project called 365grateful and it is of a lady who had suffered frm depression but found great joy in taking a polaroid a day of all th3 things she is grateful for. seems so simple but it musthave taken a lot of willpower and perseverance to squeeze out happy moments even in the darkest of pmsy days.

anw what went down today was hardcore baking w my scholarly friends at home and it was great how we were all excited about healthy raw vegan baking in our own way, like the first taste of the avocado chocolate ganache (instant hit i swear upon it) or just the convenience of dumpin the ingredients into the food processor and waiting for the magic to befall upon us. raw food is an fresh new aspect to explore in the gastronomic realm but definitely worth exploring.
it is also exciting bc it makes me really happy that i'm getting sweet foods at the low price of minimal calories!!! it's my one new years wish that i want to keep at. and hopefully i can bring gems of recipe ideas to sydney.
sydney is this year!!! i have to read a really long contract from the student accomodation place -really impt info there- & the kids are talking about it while i am just..... idk. i'm waiting for a good time to properly open up the documents and read it carefully. woops that time'd better be soon

oh & properly plan and pack for hongkong which is this week *thoroughly excitessss*!!! talking to friends about it makes me scared of the canto-concentration but most of them reassures me that surviving on engrish and weak chinese is fine.

getting the hang of this clean eating thing...! *fingers crossed*

lunchies today!!! whipped up from my imagination ha ha sounds gay but whadevzx~

 

fun day on sunday at medszxzx at millennia walk w the family + 2 little cousins. finally super great food (octopus paella n i can never fall out of love with it). went to collect the great eastern women's run which is happening this sunday!! well 'never let perfect be the enemy of good', so as long as i do some form of exercise n not beat myself over the other times i am not doing exercise, i guess i'm alright. btw lovin that quote, trying to live by it everyday.

nowadays tumblr's fuelling me w word energy. lots and lots and lots of quotes, happy food essentially motivation to live life w/o the need to have calorie-intense things. more sensitive to changes in the body w all the positive vibes.

in | out

followed a recipe from funeralformyfat another inspirational fitblr and did
CHIASEED FRENCH TOAST anti egg edition starring
● cinnamon
● squished half banana
● organic rice milk
● chia seeds in water which turns into a gelly like texture

soo dyin to try out uberhealthy recipes and despite the slight rush of time i managed to pop some into the oven bfr i went off to work
(I HAVENT QUIT DESPITE SAYING I WUD HAHA idek when i'd stop but i think i rly need the moolah n yet i need to train eeeeep.)
inner turmoils aside, yea not beatin urself too much about food makes eatin a more positive activity n i rly think it'd help me live a life more sustainable. feeling positive

can best friends pls not be born on consecutive days hahahahahaha constant source of stress lah ♡♡♡

lol ps: u wonder how my toasties turned out lol
lol one big soggy mess w crispy crust saved by cinnamon powder and raisins and crunchy pb lol

coolio saturday~

one sentence summary ok: watched cutie patootie cousins x 2 's perforkances at st stevens today one of them graduating and he did some shimmy limbo thing while my nursery boy had stage fright during his bollywood perf ha ha the parent audience lapped up like it's an imptthing but then again when do u get to see ur child doing dances w his chubby 4-6 y/o limbs
did a 1000 cal workout ytd by fitness blender n rly its a killer one i used my anat textbook as a weight n strength train haaaa but the bsst was the kickboxing n boyi wish u saw me --- or not, bc i was half spasmodically flailing my limbs about in an attempt to defend myself from my imaginary opponent n half being out of breath
i am sore this is my first youtube workout i was actually sore all over gah

highly recommended for every reader ♡●♡●♡

to not binge is to not binge like literally you cant tell urself uve eaten too much bc then youll be in this vicious cycle of depression/starvation and for me i'd wna eat eat eat more during depression mode so yeah
getting my shit together bc im the only one that can help myself if i dont nobody will im just gg to take deep breaths,
realize that im not hungry probably just need to find smth to do
go pee/drink some wataaa or herbal tea
not choose processed bc
♥♥♥ happy taste buds r not worth sad livers ♥♥♥
lol

the beach is a 5c4ry kind of g00d.

 

hello,

missed this space a lot, haven't been round here much, but

i think life so far has been swell. keeping positive really works wonders.