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i always fall short. and it is a tiring thing.
i don't want to tell myself that i've tried hard, because life is like that. unfair and unjustifiable. even if i did feel so, i know i'd just feel more pain.

so i don't want to feel anything right now.
i don't know if i retain. of course i don't want to. i know i tried. i disappoint.

can't think now. just going all out. drive the stake into my heart to end it all. i don't know why i disappoint myself all the time.
nvm

now there's no more fun anymore. cue to focus. :(

love to all my kawan-kawan. this sh*t sucks but. hope.