speedy 2012.

whiz whiz whiz. i'm just living the days, not counting dates, just breathing air until the a levels are done, but now it seems that i'm unnecessarily busy. can't imagine how filled to the brim my brain would be just ten years down the road.


of course there's the doubts and insecurities and they are always always there. but today i feel a sense of closure. nirvana!! freedom, salvation from my thoughts. stupid rebs is being stupid again. ok but now that i've found nirvana, it is all good. i think. there are definite and indefinite stuff in life. and i'm glad pink family is a permanent structure in my life. they're truly a godsend. like today when i really couldn't move a step further and i met jo whoohoo and i just needed a breather hahaha as dramatic as it sounds. god wraps his arms all around me and i should be so thankful for that. i only realized it now. i hate being idiotic oh man. sometimes i really think i'm screwing my life over. yet it doesn't seem quite so. haha, i don't know. life is eventful of late. and thoughts aplenty.
hm. i don't feel like i'm living 2012, yet. i think it's cos of tennis camp, jumbling up my mind schedule.
and i realise i was never meant to be amazing. i rather much enjoy being a fat antisocial little slob so big i have my own gravity pull. not ride high and mighty, even if i tried. i'm on the edge of average and nothing more to be said.
i'm quite glad for delta house comm sometimes. and i like the company of og 12 ogls. now the trick is to let 2012 og12 kids have the best time of their jc lives and hopefully we can play the cards right and hopefully. idk. haha. i remember the cedar spirit. it was a strong unwavering flame. realised og 12 was really a stepping stone to life in tj. takes lots of luck.
inferiority complex max. but yeah anyway right.

i lost my train of thought. dont really want to think anymore. ok can. i like to laugh. i'm so glad there are lovely people who can make me laughhhhhhhhh my ass off.☺☺☺☺☺☺☺
hi hi hi deonn, if you are reading this then good on you hehe so glad to have met you, so glad swirlypinkmuffins has at least one official blog viewer. thank you for your post. (spam emoji + exclamation marks) i'm so glad for blog link exchanges. i can't believe we survived the year. even if my class number is half of yours. which means we are actually just really far away in distance.

actually i'm glad to have discovered a bit more about pink family in 2011. finally i can be let out of the house a lil bit longer than those noob poop sec 3 days hahah, oh my. this year will be the highscore!!! the resolution with nat haha. anw i still feel like a noob poop now.
but i guess i just got to constantly remind myself of the bigger picture everytime. i'm freaking tired now. lots to do actually. we are always on a mission. hmmmmmmmm. happy days. cheerleading was cool. ryan got slapped in the face by nicolas who previously got hit in the balls. haha these things should really be documented for future reference/ conversation helpers. popping is really scary. so proud of jas now, fly fly fly! and the alpha peeps are a godsend. in other news. more training for me. gah. idk. priorities.
priorities are sh*t.

you know when you wish something happens and it doesn't and you get upset about it the whole day, or when it does happen you brush it off thinking nothing much of it and underappreciating something that is wonderful- is it why life always seems so hard? there is a reason. there are reasons. i dislike (N) typing a whole lot but i justttttttt wannaaaaaaaa dragggggggggggggg myyyyyyyyyyyyyy wwwwwwwwordssss.