epiphanies;

i wish i had one of those now and then.

i don't really know how to react now, actually. and i'm afraid that it'd be awkward at some point in time, i just cross my fingers that it's not soon. the reality is inundating me quite a fair bit. (keyboard smashing + exclamation marks)

okay, so that's january eighth for you.
heart goes out to abi and the others. you will be strong and brave. it's not the end, it's never the end unless it's a happy ending. happy endings are complete endings.

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feeling a tinge of nostalgia for cheer now. the people the hot sun the craziness the united atmosphere, some feeling that everything's gonna go smoothly, which it did!

time to focus on dire issues and train a lot, a lot harder.

sleep.

p.s: PATTAYA TRIP MADE IT TO THE (CATHOLIC NEWS)!!!!!

inundation

three days just passed swiftly and i couldn't really get anything done.
cheer/ open house prep
church sharing and i was again ballsy and foolish to go back home late late again oops. and cheer is tomorrow. i appreciate all delta hc has done. thankew dears.

"and see my bruises cos of cheer"
"ouch, did you fall down?"
"naw, the people fell on me"

HAHAHAHAHAH sorry i thought that was kinda funny. !!!!! and ofc the cheer assholes are forever being mean to me. but they're so amusing. cheer = mixed feelings this time round. i wanna wanna wanna be proud to be a deltan. or a vega-n.

okay proud to be in control of my inner tides now. let everything be smoothsailing lord, and let me be driven by my purpose in life and nothing else.

pf. there's some pride in being part of something special and home-ly. really really feels like home.

haaaaa, hi that's life for me. other than ingesting fat shiz. school is no. tired.

lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones.

speedy 2012.

whiz whiz whiz. i'm just living the days, not counting dates, just breathing air until the a levels are done, but now it seems that i'm unnecessarily busy. can't imagine how filled to the brim my brain would be just ten years down the road.

thank you for 2011.

i hope 2012 will just be a quick emotionless year for everyone, since it's gonna be a tough one but we're gonna pull through just like everybody else before us has.

2012 will be that bitter black cough syrup we all got to take, but shut our eyes and hold our breaths and hopefully with a little magic or something of that sort, miracles will happen.

quite a lot of junk, hehe. hence this jump break ♣♣♣

surviving.

camp. scared.

not to expect anything in return

i would love to have that trait actually, because i'd always be the opposite.
so these days have gone by in a whirl, just like how 2011 seemed transient and untouched.

23: 6 gardenian gathering. good laughs and old friends. it's so great to see how everyone has blossomed with the help of ms chow's affectionate 'showers of blessings'. paige and gwen were all same old and i vaguely miss primary school. no one can ever forget how we can humiliate ourselves to the core like noobs!!
peninsular plaza after that with the bren. greatest bargainer ever. actually i learnt that from the night market in pattaya already heehee. so glad we got our bags. ♥

24: i don't remember. we had ribs and baked potatoes and a peanut butter log cake and christmas movies and it was all-american awesome. and mass at olps. i feel so blessed for getting the feel of christmas there, although it's so tiny like a manger. oh, and lots of whatsapping and emoji spammage.

25: happy breakfast + morning catch-up with foreveryang! so glad for that. and normal christmas over at popo's house. yay, like a christmas two years ago, without all those travelling. and then a dinner afterwards. and idk. xmas is xmas. even if those bummer thoughts had to share my brain vacancy for the entire day. idk, but i think i'm foolish. a really, really foolish dude.

2 days to camp, so one more precious day left to enjoy LLL cant think deeply now, so this post is very numerally.