HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY JAN BABIES

eighteen.

happy birthday aerilynn and paige.

you guys have done so much for me. love you all so much.

crab meat.

some repulsion here, but i know it's got to end soon. i can't keep going on like this. really got to try harder and push it likka sheeet.

yesterday i realised. kinda need to start all over, start to appreciate people. idk. sinhui jas joy wanting and i headed to the field in the hot sun, reminiscent of the days of tennis camp, just that it's all a lil more lighthearted. and we took crazy pictures!! loved it. it's been a while since we done crazy girls-school things! and then we talked at gong cha. it's been a while since i talked-talked with sh HEHE our lives are so interlinked, i love it actually. ha ha, i realised i really have lots to appreciate, just that i don't.

time with the ogls are always fun. laughing with yiyin was shizcrazy hehehehehehe and the me.mes. oh my holy.

obliterationsensation

from the reblog archives of fightingforces@tumblr.

destroying things that were once appreciated.

epiphanies;

i wish i had one of those now and then.

i don't really know how to react now, actually. and i'm afraid that it'd be awkward at some point in time, i just cross my fingers that it's not soon. the reality is inundating me quite a fair bit. (keyboard smashing + exclamation marks)

okay, so that's january eighth for you.
heart goes out to abi and the others. you will be strong and brave. it's not the end, it's never the end unless it's a happy ending. happy endings are complete endings.

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feeling a tinge of nostalgia for cheer now. the people the hot sun the craziness the united atmosphere, some feeling that everything's gonna go smoothly, which it did!

time to focus on dire issues and train a lot, a lot harder.

sleep.

p.s: PATTAYA TRIP MADE IT TO THE (CATHOLIC NEWS)!!!!!

inundation

three days just passed swiftly and i couldn't really get anything done.
cheer/ open house prep
church sharing and i was again ballsy and foolish to go back home late late again oops. and cheer is tomorrow. i appreciate all delta hc has done. thankew dears.

"and see my bruises cos of cheer"
"ouch, did you fall down?"
"naw, the people fell on me"

HAHAHAHAHAH sorry i thought that was kinda funny. !!!!! and ofc the cheer assholes are forever being mean to me. but they're so amusing. cheer = mixed feelings this time round. i wanna wanna wanna be proud to be a deltan. or a vega-n.

okay proud to be in control of my inner tides now. let everything be smoothsailing lord, and let me be driven by my purpose in life and nothing else.

pf. there's some pride in being part of something special and home-ly. really really feels like home.

haaaaa, hi that's life for me. other than ingesting fat shiz. school is no. tired.

lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones.

speedy 2012.

whiz whiz whiz. i'm just living the days, not counting dates, just breathing air until the a levels are done, but now it seems that i'm unnecessarily busy. can't imagine how filled to the brim my brain would be just ten years down the road.