Do nothing day

Pitch Perfect / Step Up 2: The Streets

Rebecca in adult form

Definitely a challenge for the less social. Being the new girl is emotionally draining but thank goodness for the few new friends I've mustered up the courage to talk to and be familiar with. The cray Claire and Elaine who's just a mash of past personalities that I've met. Then there's Kaushi and Esther and oh Lena yay for familiar faces. ☺ Ok the trick is to stop worrying outside work hours, sleep sufficiently and omg I can't believe I'm living life as a working adult.
Hats off to educators around the world and esp here because everyone seems so homely w each other. Loving the warm dynamics

my 2012.

back when everything was ~~alright~~

i mean, not the depicted event, but

according to facebook, this was one of my events.

p.s.: i haven't told my parents about this yet. they didn't ask, so i probably won't damage this mindset of theirs. i think they think i lost it. i don't know whether brutally damaging my camera via death by gravity or stupidly replacing it is better though.......

i want to special mention:

• brenda, 
• deonn, 
• jolene,
• paige, 
• xin yun, 
• jaspex, 
• hazel, 
• jes, 
• weeps. 

omg my mind ain't functioning much, but yea at the top of my fingers. what's rebecca's 2012 without them. (coincidentally, or not, my stupid status is commented by them hohoho.

of course there's the mad class 16/11 wherein we were the target of many teachers- they eyed us like hawks because we were forever below expectations (ok econs was... explainable and forgivable for us) ((on another note, me and chem have absolutely zero chemistry ha ha ha. always has been though ew)) uuuurgh screw this maybe nightmares do come true. but but then i will always remember joy's foreverinhappiness spirit, charmay's high intelligence which became the saving grace of all the grades, buying 5 bowls of japanese rice during breaks, the occasional missing of abi's absence, interceptions during tutorials- sometimes unwanted, waking up jasmine goon jie min, loks' -1 pun making, bitching about ms lai even in class oops, CLY phase, jodi's award-winning punctuality, mr fazli's standard procedure in going through test results (the sighing, the statistics, the 'you could've gotten this question(s) correct' speech), and the most importantly; learning. (karma just be nice please)

i will try not to remember the hideous shade of green that reeks from the uniform.

i always chose to think of 2012 as the worst year of my life, i mean, isn't that what ms ho said the other time, that j2 is going to be the worst year of our lives? it's not really a 'people' year, this 2012. it's more of a time for self-discovery, self-motivated, self-fish. everything self year. i think that's when i kind of lost god which i had held close all the while. until the period when the exams had gotten heavy, ironically. i'm glad though, that i've sorta found my drive back, in general. and how the social networking shiz and self-inflicted societal pressure had inundated me back in secondary school; if only i hadn't given in, maybe i would have been much better off. then again, i wouldn't have unearthed all these friendships throughout the journey in the tunnels called temasek. (had this epiphany when i was running recently)

music: 

• mylo xyloto (coldplay)
• one song by hillsong- hosanna; (in which i had cried the first time listening to it, i think i was stressed by smth???)
• florence + the machine
• adele
• halcyon (ellie goulding) ((only more recently))

things that kept me going when i was @ hell on earth:

• the drive that usually comes in whenever i'm running with the music on, but the actual effect to carry out my motivations has a 10-day-lag effect. fml. but new years resolution!!!!
• photo in sec 4 (right) + words, if not it'd just be kinda creepy HAHAHA
• essence of chicken (inaccurate advertising much!!) + handmade lunch by a family member but it's always kinda reassuring of my mum
• spontaneous unexpected letters
• whatsapp group wherein the group name changes daily cuz must track days to post a lvl freedom yay look where we are now! (avenue for sanity, or maybe insanity)
• the cliched post a promises
• just the stuff on the table ie motivational calendar
• etc~

resolutions

• trust god
• not to cry during a level results release (stupid habit)
• family 
• focused
• stop excessive thinking
• do something w this privileged life
• sleep bfr 12 while i can
• reduce fbtwitterinstagram
• frugal
• homemade meals
• rmb to watch thg in 2014
• reduce effect of others' actions on my self-worth
• stop having unattainably high self-worth
• no assumptions
• eye contact
• wear contacts/ heh mebbe not.

why do i even bother doing this crud at 2 am.

~

to answer this rhetoric q using point form

• habit
• eat junk food w/o judgemental eyes
• blog tradition
• stuff to do in daylight

2012 events

• orientation with og12, ogl sleepover hahahaha shucks i'm still q embarrassed over the choice of movies zomg
• open house cheerleading w pex new member
• paige dropping over at tj / balloons
• sleepover at brenz'!!! first time heh momentous occasion
• tuition at boogz
• nationals w the tennis girls.
• exams aren't considered events
• prom/ 1am macs
• nyny
• 1611 session round 2

ok future me should thank current me

photo of the year: (better than gangnam style)
love it that i'd purposely call jes so i can see the picture
i swear jas laughed for more than 10 secs too hehehe

previously, my year end post looked like thissssss.

Bad dreams

Slept for 13 hours, wrought with nightmares like
No As for A levels, kinda lost my sense of bearings
Dropping the hard disk oh wait I did. And it's terrible because I worried about it excessively and dreamt about it.
Shit all this sucks aiyaaaaaa

Nice talking to Patts people yesterday though. Loveliest people ❤

Not the last of turquoise colored nails

School, life.
Yeah, that's about it. Although every night I wake up from slumber feeling cold, before the alarm rings. That same feeling you always get on the
First day of school
First day of COALs
First day of Patts trip
First day of OAC
I'm trying to love it, this time will be worthwhile.

D today & class girls the prev day, dinner at LTN then crashing my place and talking like 50 year old ladies would of their grandchildren. This semi grown up life

Cornrows

Most epic moment of the day:
Me showing Paige the lady with the dip dyed hair (blonde tips with normal brown) suggesting she don't do hers like that, when she started staring super epicly and super shocked at the woman and I thought that she agreed with me, until I realised (after 5 seconds of only staring and when Paige could move her tongue) that she was a famous blogger, Jemma or Jemima, was it? Hehe. Of all 6 billion people in the world!!! The coincidence.
So glad we met today!

Just wanted to say

Coming home.

Katy Perry's on replay, she's on replay

Finally got a new wallet to replace the peeling one. It's been on lotsa adventures with me since upper secondary, was lost in a taxi and found in a police station at one point. Thanks for serving me throughout, trusty one

Photo diary

Lunch; yesterday and today.
Nachos
Bagel w cheese bacon eggs

"Museum Day"

I think what the hunger games trilogy confers is a story of hope, that people power will eventually override the over-stifling clutches of some governments. It kind of strikes a chord in my heart.
But who would be so brave as to take on the role of Katniss- promises of not becoming one of the pieces that the government the government which manipulates them and turns them against one another. And that sacrifice that she is willing to take on her loved ones albeit involuntarily could we ever handle that
Just a thought. Although I'm content with life right now as it is.
Having a hangover because this is the first night I'm not reading THG trilogy on my bed. I love this bed though, it's so soft you literally sink into the pillows

Today I realised the subway is the bane of my trip here. Ok it's iconic but to be honest it's grungy and smells like disinfectant used in toilets black unknown fluffy fungus hangs down the low ceilings and sometimes the floor is wet for reasons unknown, the worst part is that they are no escalators and my feet just kills me. Ok cut the self-absorbed bit.
And can't help but imagine some monster emerging from the dark shadows of the tunnel like an alligator or a swarm of cockroaches. The part in Mockingjay when the star squad used the underground network to get closer to Snow's mansion where they were met with human-lizard mutt hybrids also scare me.
Visited the Empire State Building today. Love the piercing wind against my cheeks. I mean no kidding. The city line is phenomenal, kind of like CSI:NY except that all of it is real

• Get good food then head back home

P.s: is it normal to determine your self worth based on idk, everything but yourself?? Answers needed

Sadly I love it here

Although it was rainy and such today. Went to souvenir shops and was at St. Pat's Cathedral. I figured I might as well listen a little bit more intently to father's homily because every thing was right, like ambience-wise, hehe good for listening. It was a bit painful though, about the shootings rocking this nation yet I feel quite distanced from it; the lack of newspapers I guess
Times Sq was a rainy but beautiful affair. It wasn't as spectacular as I'd imagined- it would be if contrasted against the black night sky. But the billboards were already flashing neon lights and vying for consumers' eyes, even in the morning. And I felt I was alw gna be attacked by Godzilla or towers crashing down on to the city streets and the Avengers swooping down to the rescue. Then at F21 at Times Sq, a giant screen like a real life video feed where they have speech bubbles for the group of passers-by walking by. Cos Ericca's jacket was luminous pink, the big screen had a giant snapshot of us albeit blurry. It was cute ☺

Shopping today

Reading the climax of THG makes me sad. Am on to Catching Fire! I need spoilers ☺
Well all these are self induced. I should stop soon