my 2012.

back when everything was ~~alright~~

i mean, not the depicted event, but

according to facebook, this was one of my events.

p.s.: i haven't told my parents about this yet. they didn't ask, so i probably won't damage this mindset of theirs. i think they think i lost it. i don't know whether brutally damaging my camera via death by gravity or stupidly replacing it is better though.......

i want to special mention:

• brenda, 
• deonn, 
• jolene,
• paige, 
• xin yun, 
• jaspex, 
• hazel, 
• jes, 
• weeps. 

omg my mind ain't functioning much, but yea at the top of my fingers. what's rebecca's 2012 without them. (coincidentally, or not, my stupid status is commented by them hohoho.

of course there's the mad class 16/11 wherein we were the target of many teachers- they eyed us like hawks because we were forever below expectations (ok econs was... explainable and forgivable for us) ((on another note, me and chem have absolutely zero chemistry ha ha ha. always has been though ew)) uuuurgh screw this maybe nightmares do come true. but but then i will always remember joy's foreverinhappiness spirit, charmay's high intelligence which became the saving grace of all the grades, buying 5 bowls of japanese rice during breaks, the occasional missing of abi's absence, interceptions during tutorials- sometimes unwanted, waking up jasmine goon jie min, loks' -1 pun making, bitching about ms lai even in class oops, CLY phase, jodi's award-winning punctuality, mr fazli's standard procedure in going through test results (the sighing, the statistics, the 'you could've gotten this question(s) correct' speech), and the most importantly; learning. (karma just be nice please)

i will try not to remember the hideous shade of green that reeks from the uniform.

i always chose to think of 2012 as the worst year of my life, i mean, isn't that what ms ho said the other time, that j2 is going to be the worst year of our lives? it's not really a 'people' year, this 2012. it's more of a time for self-discovery, self-motivated, self-fish. everything self year. i think that's when i kind of lost god which i had held close all the while. until the period when the exams had gotten heavy, ironically. i'm glad though, that i've sorta found my drive back, in general. and how the social networking shiz and self-inflicted societal pressure had inundated me back in secondary school; if only i hadn't given in, maybe i would have been much better off. then again, i wouldn't have unearthed all these friendships throughout the journey in the tunnels called temasek. (had this epiphany when i was running recently)

music: 

• mylo xyloto (coldplay)
• one song by hillsong- hosanna; (in which i had cried the first time listening to it, i think i was stressed by smth???)
• florence + the machine
• adele
• halcyon (ellie goulding) ((only more recently))

things that kept me going when i was @ hell on earth:

• the drive that usually comes in whenever i'm running with the music on, but the actual effect to carry out my motivations has a 10-day-lag effect. fml. but new years resolution!!!!
• photo in sec 4 (right) + words, if not it'd just be kinda creepy HAHAHA
• essence of chicken (inaccurate advertising much!!) + handmade lunch by a family member but it's always kinda reassuring of my mum
• spontaneous unexpected letters
• whatsapp group wherein the group name changes daily cuz must track days to post a lvl freedom yay look where we are now! (avenue for sanity, or maybe insanity)
• the cliched post a promises
• just the stuff on the table ie motivational calendar
• etc~

resolutions

• trust god
• not to cry during a level results release (stupid habit)
• family 
• focused
• stop excessive thinking
• do something w this privileged life
• sleep bfr 12 while i can
• reduce fbtwitterinstagram
• frugal
• homemade meals
• rmb to watch thg in 2014
• reduce effect of others' actions on my self-worth
• stop having unattainably high self-worth
• no assumptions
• eye contact
• wear contacts/ heh mebbe not.

why do i even bother doing this crud at 2 am.

~

to answer this rhetoric q using point form

• habit
• eat junk food w/o judgemental eyes
• blog tradition
• stuff to do in daylight

2012 events

• orientation with og12, ogl sleepover hahahaha shucks i'm still q embarrassed over the choice of movies zomg
• open house cheerleading w pex new member
• paige dropping over at tj / balloons
• sleepover at brenz'!!! first time heh momentous occasion
• tuition at boogz
• nationals w the tennis girls.
• exams aren't considered events
• prom/ 1am macs
• nyny
• 1611 session round 2

ok future me should thank current me

photo of the year: (better than gangnam style)
love it that i'd purposely call jes so i can see the picture
i swear jas laughed for more than 10 secs too hehehe

previously, my year end post looked like thissssss.