The Script.

so the day we've all been waiting in fervent anticipation for. paid a good amount for!!!! 151 for good seats at the side. first time at the indoor stadium witnessing an awesome band, live music, & hot irish accents. the feeling is so surreal.

i think i like concerts.

so i asked jo if she was free bfr the concert for far east visiting and nope she wasn't. srsly i thought she had something up with her family, because she said she couldn't make it for sleepover too. and bren too, for the sleepover, post-concert.

we waited for one hour for the band. and the opening act was yup. unanimous agreement that it didn't rly perk up the mood as much as it was supposed to!! was so glad to receive news that deonn got tickets too!! and after that, i found out that shazwani and iyn huii were here too.

waiting...........

my concert friends + look at jes w her 50$ tshirt omg. price extortion at its best.

the show and the lights that went to the beat of the music and the huge screens at the side rly made a good atmosphere

errybady waving their iphone lights like pretty SLC fireflies at a touching song. 

ok and this is the sweet sweet part. ♥

health post #one

never been happier with my fitness progress this year /ever/ but here it is!!!!! today!!
ran w upper tracky who lives just opp tj and ran the park connector x 4 without really stopping and that is already an accomplishment in itself bc i usually take fifty-one minutes and mull over the pain in my joints/ shins and wat-not, but w a friend,
you get really good pacing b/c it's consistent and at a faster speed than personal runs
it's stressful but in a good way- feel super paiseh if i run too slow and muck up the pacing for friend (situation alw like this for jodi and i too)
and the whole no-binge before run thing rly works!!!!! i think i am most happy about this b/c i always 'fuel up' bfr a run - stuffing my cheeks full on LOADS of food, good and bad until sometimes i even forget how to breathe as i am consuming excessively yucks i disgust myself
BUT WITH A PENGYOU it's so different!!!! ate really mildly and ran after that. i think the food in my belly will cause me stitches and other pains, whereas if there is no food, then my system is ok!! contrary to my belief that i will faint from hunger if i run bfr loading up on food + procrastinating and such.
really need to continue with this schedule and keep the satisfaction levels up. can't rly afford to keep feeling like a shiz and going in infinite circles of self-pity. the post-exercise feeling is super encouraging (and that is how i will psycho myself until forever)
FINGERS CROSSED

and hi on sunday i went w my momma to orchard for i think the very first time as a mom/daughter pair for the uk uni fair which is meatballs and by meatballs i mean not very informative. then to old canyon where i finally treated and it feels gooooood yet super bad bc i should do it more often.
then fightingforces!! got tons of stuff so thanks for walking around shopping haven with me
u_u  blissful face of having good buys.
p.s: editors market is gonna have to open its doors to me again because i'm betting on that shop to sell me good deals!!! omg grab all the friends and let's go buy clothes there. i'm in love w their concept (the more you buy the cheaper it gets for each item)
p.s.s: must remove cheapo spirit hehehehe

--- i think right now it's just the endorphins acting up ---

can't wait for uss darn

clash w demons

i need some serious evaluation of my soul in order to proceed.
the day started off quite sorely. just a run, then stayed at home most of the time. i don't know how normal people survive days at home. no one speaks. as usual. hung around in the room to tidy up the essay.
suddenly all these insecurities start to rush out to hit me. why can't i get anyone out for earth hour, why does some part of me become hesitant to go out after that, why do i look at my reflection and suddenly realize how many flaws there are on me. why is it still saturday and not sunday which proceeds monday when my life can finally proceed and get into high gear. (next week is autism awareness week which means hopefully, busy so i can get away from my thoughts)
why do i keep nitpicking on my friends' flaws. god they are my friends.
i thought there was catechism today but there wasn't (march hols you see), so i took a bus, realised, then went to the adoration room instead where i got to re-evaluate. i don't wanna go overseas neither do i want to stay in sg as i'm afraid i can't turn down procrastination and hall activities and what not. i'm scared that overseas will just be turbulence turbulence turbulence all the way- or maybe this is just pessimist speak?...... i really don't know. back then i was so sure speech therapy was going to be my thing. i will love my thing and i certainly want to help people. now that i have this option.... what if i can't turn back? and do i actually want to turn back? no, not really. i can't see any part of me going into biz or law or eng or any of that. /assuming my grades could take me there. but the sheer glamour of those industry really tempts me w its neon signage and big bold words. but no. st. the passion must pull me through.

does everybody just live their lives independently now like

o o o o o o .....

venn diagrams of how people's lives are which show that none of them intersect.

i hate this part when i think my whole social life and family life are in shambles. contrary to popular belief, twitter rly wrecks my life or so i feel. the whole self-worth shit!!!!!!!!!!!!! sucks

Est since 2011!!!

This pretty darn awsm friend of mine who has done rly well and we're both on our way w our cray cray lives which we live.

But first a super scrumptious brunch + tea to top up our happy tank////
Hullo The Garden Slug aka probs the best tea time deal for 14.50$ ever!!!
Plus sitting at the quaint corner, talking, completing Uni apps like the mature adults that we are blossoming into (omg man) & +10 for sitting in front of a nice big red wall to serve as a good background for our pix whoohoo.

Today was a purdy good rest day hence this post ☺☺☺

living louder/ dream in colour.

interview was a beach in a bad sense..... can never bring across my thoughts in a manner that is sensible and coherent for the average human to comprehend. i feel that there is a lot more that i could've said. sigh these feels.
and the upperpri trackies rly psycho-ed me rather convincingly to try the residential colleges so i am rly hoping for it now-
agenda:

• etrial
• running
• cardio (step-healthy only siaaaa)
• essay (must complete)

yesterday and today in sch was two things at one time; relaxing bc we were finally liberated of all great authority which means laying on the floor of the staff room, drawing the human and plant anatomy, listening to youtube vids and that which benefited me immensely was the resolute preparation of everyone in the room for uni apps. there was great help too i.e, audrey the ri kid whom we all look up to for advice and relevant hearsay pertaining to anything uni-related.
and the food!!!!!! lunch at amk hub and the day bfr that, we unearthed the gem that is called the next door deli which sells marvelous cafe food at affordable prices!!! although the portions were quite minuscule wrt my appetite. but it was rly good. everyone please try it- the food runs out so fast though.
and the next door deli is next to (pun intended) pine gardens which sells the best cakes ever known!!!!!!1 plus it's so great bc they've exotic flavours yet it's priced at 3$/slice. soooo good for tastebuds but such a sinful indulgence.
so yup amk is my new hood/crib/area.
and great company, basically.
everyone was all
"eh reb are you impressed by amk now"
"why are you not impressed with amk hub"
and huiling gave me a tour of the place too.


i'm thankful that despite getting off to a rough start in this internship, the people negates all the unpleasant memories and implants happy ones in my head instead.

no more wallowing in self-pity anymore. 2013 will be different and
let's consider all the opportunities that are brought to us and hopefully make some for ourselves as well.

OFFER:
FREE WONKA SWEETARTS (merry mix) FROM ME!!!!!!

everyone digs the green hard candy (green apple) than the pink cherry one
but srsly i'm trying to clear it from the kitchen but finding ways not to eat it directly.
maybe i'll keep it for uni and give it to all my faculty frenz

Infinity & beyond

Grateful for mom&pops for being more enthused w the whole series of open houses than I am
The fact that they care that much about who I am (going to become) makes me pressurised about being the best that my threshold can handle
Jodi says the world will conspire with you to achieve your goals but the shins forever doing splints makes me believe otherwise /thumps table/
More swimming to come~

P.s: Would focusing on the theory/phenomenon essay for USP be foolish?? Not always (/never) the best in essay writing but multidisciplinary describes speech therapy/ related courses to the T.
P.s.s: Wednesday deserves to be an impt day.

We the sinners.

Instead of penitential service, we went to Gardens By The Bay which is rly awsm at night. And feasted at the hawker.
I've come to love each and every hawker food, even the spicy ones which had no place in my favourite foods catalogue!

Don't listen to a word I say

Of monsters and men overkill !!!!!! Their vevo vids just has all things lovely with it.

I honestly think my r/s w food is not working out. It's actually gotten quite scary, to a point. It could be going good for a day or two, tops, then I would blatantly put in disregard all that I had worked for and stuffed my face out. My thighs feel suffocated because they can't breathe. Been wanting to tell my mom but idrk how to get about it. Need to fall in love w sports again.
Went to cgh today to check out the allied health professions. So glad that they called and asked me to go. Even if it meant taking yet another half day off. It was a risk but a risk worth taking. Haven't had a good lunch w the YFAs for pretty long~~~

It's heartwarming how family members look out for one another and care so much for their well being. I feel that each patient I possibly see, provides me a window to peer into their lives & it's fascinating to see values like Love, Filial Piety, Determination etc being lived out.

And I'm pretty certain that I'm getting more and more sadistic in sch or smth. I will resort to be a nice and lenient tcher

6k five times a week. >:(

Yeah yeah yeah

I actually think I've never wanted something so /badly/ bfr. Gonna try my best, then. And keep dreaming of it ☁☁☁ no more second chances.
This self degenerating behaviour is not funny maybe I should seek some help or smth
With disregard to all the above, rly glad to have gotten 'sunburned' w the churchies in my crib/hood/ghetto *spreads flabby arms out wide & stands in the ctr of the road*.
11pm • super good hawker fare at the beach!!! • talking outside my front door
Bottomline is; have a YOLO time Nat the fake Aussie!!

Going to Marine Life Park tmr w the kiddies and then went to Lilliput for a recce today &&& I felt like I just emerged from underneath my Pat Star rock after JC years. Kinda rocking, though. (Pun intended) ☺☺☺

Yep//

Today has taught me one thing. To charge ahead. And not look back to first of march until I do something substantial with my measly time here on God's good earth. Thank you Lord for instilling back that drive to study, I must keep it close to my heart.
Gonna keep it in my pocket and remember to be determined & not dead slack like I was all this while. No more insecurities and heart thoughts going to burden me. I just hope the world gives chances to those who realize their errors at this stage of their lives.