at my core, there is not nothing. neither is it a parched wasteland. at my core, there is love. i'll go on loving that ten-year-old boy named tengo forever- his strength, his intelligence, his kindness. he does not exist here, with me, but flesh that does not exist will never die, and promises unmade are never broken. 

❤️❤️❤️ always love hanging out in your minimalist beautiful room （＾ν＾）

14.1.2015

i decided that i was going to be happy today because happiness is a choice that i can choose to make. staying at home was a happy choice. to be surrounded with healthy food is a happy choice.

i feel so blessed that dad is more into juicing than i am. its a more positive environment i feel i am in. the text came on the day of JJ's party and i was really excited to get home to the juice really. the days of the binge are long gone and they wont return because nutrients rule calories drool 

im not going to fall into the calorie trap again. anyway yez juicing is the best damn thing that has ever happened in my life and to fully embrace it is the other best thing i've done for myself (＾ｰ^)ノ

dont let the fear of what could happen make nothing happen.

yoga time is always good time

i was such a yoga hater becoz my mom did it so the effort i took to avoid yoga was a huge one. only in y1s2 did i learn to love doing yoga. i promised myself to have 20 mins of it every day and if i was stressed, i'd have it for an hour. in the next few weeks, i found that i could stretch and hold better in the different poses. my downward dog splits managed to get higher with greater ease. and in the class; a crow pose for the longest duration for me (!!!! 5 secs)

i thought yoga was really just holding the pose and keeping up with the instructor but it definitely is more than that because its a personal development journey of understanding yourself and your limits and not caring about the progress of others but basically focusing on yourself. its about easing into the pose and stabilizing your body and forgetting about the past slips and unbalanced moments so that your mind is fully focused on that present moment alone ˊ_>ˋ really good stuff tbh, i really got to understand my body better, improve my flexi and be more mindful of the present moment （＾ω＾）

1. regular shampoos give me itches and irritated skin so i have decided to go poo-free (￣▽￣) really tired of having to resist doing something for myself so i'm taking the first step. it'll be a baking soda + apple cider vinegar wash for me from now on; i had my first wash today and it felt good because it was not as harsh as dove or pantene. i can feel the natural oils being locked in and hopefully this works out for me. i was considering organic hair washes as well because my skin was good after organix but the price hurts (/ _ ; ) i'll use them in oz for now where my parents wont know the price heehee 

i'm embracing the naturals and starting to love it bcoz i really believe that this is what we are meant to do as a human species. tree huggin' plant eatin' animals of the earth

2. had a 2 hour walk today with cheryl who lol clearly hasnt been running in ages lol but the walk to east coast was really good cuz we ended up talking a lot ketching up on life as we know it and interesting projects under way might make for an interesting 2015. thought it was a really good idea for her to set up an insta documenting her food because this girl has been to eaten like $1000 lunches before and tried $90/pax hotel buffets in crown plaza melbourne... serious food porn potential to be shown to mankind.

i did side walking at one point of the walk but dayum my side thighs ache now this is a great workout and the sun was being singaporean the beach was being salty and good 

the background looks superimposed but it's au naturel guys. 

3.

i am grateful for having a voice. it means theres a vehicle to express my opinions. silence twists truths or cloaks them up and i should use voice more. 

ヽ(；▽；)ノ

nonetheless, these past few days have been swell. 7am runs at botanic gardens with my dad are my most anticipated part of any day handsdown. its just the beauty of the park and the people there and the conversations and that gorgeous plant scent when you run past green things

summertime sadness (or lack thereof???)

6.1.2015 with hazel

1. i was always afraid and shifty to listen to other peoples stories and i feared to put my opinions across to them. but damn, yesterday was different. i felt what you had to share bore striking resemblances to my life. i am still finding a way to put my thoughts as effectively to you to make you see. but ilysm and the most important person who should love you is you. too often do we put others before ourselves because "we love them" then too often we find it tiring because we are giving so much. how about we first respect ourselves, our preferences and our values first before including others in the picture? it seems unreal for me that acknowledging myself was actually the solution to all my self-inflicted problems. i think the world is pretty much complete if i cared about myself better.