Life is relegated to this heap here

Only for a few more- one more month. Crudcake it's November that month bfr December

Today is Jo's birthday, happy birthday Jo!!! ❤❤❤
Making school and beyond a million times bearable. Gna make it up after As, which
once again, feels as crap as ever blergh ahhh ok scratch that.
On a ☀ side, brownie points for trying, at least? Cannot give up this chance yet. :'(
BE STRONG BOOB

Replies- because the comment boxes are forever malfunctioning

XY: I say yes yes yes to ramen and endless possibilities of good food, and definitely YES to blogger switching!! ☺

Deonn: a proper blog reply for you; because I have to thank you too buddy!! I think we were koolkats even before we knew it ourselves hahaha, I rmb us going up on stage, was it? To do some cheer or dance thing, for the sake of gaining pts for OG12 and thn ffwd to today.... Well smile bcos it happened right? ☺✌ must can will pull thru this

Happy birthday Haze ❤

aka Jizzel fo shizzel drizzle
Always and forever epic judging times, bugis food court judging moments, class judging moments, you being "taller" than me so it's easier to put your hand on my shoulder moments (I bend down as best as I can)
Humuhumunukunuku chats daily (and yea!!!! Come to think of it, it really is a daily affair wowee) because a day just won't be called a day without whatsapping there ☺
Intellectual moments, -1 moments, what is mr Chua wearing moments, why he put his marker there moments, sugar-is-bad moments, shocking ah shocking Chinese version moments, judging ourselves moments, WOF moments (thx jas for good hosting), CLY moments (oh yea~~~)
Emotional moments, good pun moments (you're welcome xx!!!)
Nice leg moments (NOT MOMENTS BUT OKAY LA YOUR LEGS R SMEXY you are preetz!!!!)
And like, neck crust.
You're such a blast to hang out w really!!! I hope you're happy on your birthday and like everyday and I rly hope everything falls into place in Mar, ☺

Had fun selecting the pix from camera roll hehe☁☀

No more touching instax forevz

This noob girl spends instax like camera iPhone snaps.
This noob girl forgot to take home a precious instax!!!--- like omg what even. Sigh
☀☀☀ but this pretty weather brought me to VJ; hopped there to pass XY her belated birthday present- sorry it ain't much but post As, post As!!
And a good consult w ms Tay hahha okay anything ANYTHING to take my mind off the substandard math paper.
I really do miss the VJ girlz tho, nice day.

One full circle.

Things just went one full circle. There's the start point way back last year and we did a Cedar billy banja which of course meant a lot. We were hopeful of our ambitions and dreams but the sight of it was much narrower, now that 2 years have worn us out. I never would have thought academics could take such a toll on our lives. It's probably just the beginning but we wait and see. I hope the drive brings us through, whatever troubles and challenges we have. It's so easy to fall through the cracks, yet people have done it; it's possible. Ok this day shall go down as unproductive day #n. it's one of those worth it unproductive days though....
Emotions shall not drag me down anymore. Hurt will not shake me.
Graduation today was good. ☺ And met Charmz too but I guess I only realised now... I will miss you being around school, being tall so I can always spot you. Thanks for tolerating me HAHAHA and glad you got to know the team. So maybe that's something worth stashing into your memories.
Of some friendships, I'm deeply regretful of what came out of it and I still am at a loss of what to do? But one thing that came out of going through primary and sec sch was to leave without enemies so yupppp.
And hm thx to 16/11 everyone amuses me and we amuse and judge ourselves. Miss you guys though I hate y'all sometimes esp Loks hahahaha but he don't read this so it's okay.
HAHA I cannot stop laughing at this photo cuz I wasn't meant to be some perv omg now that just sux but the picture is nice, so okay ~contentment~

fwp

This is terribly first world problemsy, but... I'VE NO GOOD CAMERA FOR TMRW!!! The good camera being the DSLR and it being currently flown away to Bhutan where my dad is. (Last few weeks bfr he's back for good, phew) and um that episode where I dropped my camera down five storeys during Go Green Day hahahahaha still a joke. So okay. This is uncalled for.
Graduation. The feeling like I've lived through it before, because I have. Maybe I haven't felt it right was because I haven't started on Graduation cards yet, but I thought I'd just leave it til the end of the Term or something because it would be kind of awkward if you wrote stuff for people like it was the last time you were ever gonna see them and then you meet them the next day.
I was thinking when I should jot down the ever momentous graduation post.
Contrary to other people, where secondary school was 4 glistening golden years of precious memories, and leaving secsch was a terrible thing, I think leaving JC is more of a predicament. It's a signal you're growing up, and no longer can you be sheltered from the stormy years of adulthood. I think of taxes and unemployment and.. Idk you can never really be fired from being a student much unlike other things. TJ has been okay, just a whole bunch of repetitive routines especially these last few months, striving for perfection but not even managing to reach a mere slice of what you set to accomplish is the most painful and draining state to be in. These nights I've been spontaneously sleeping again; maybe I lost the fear that once drove me? But anyway.
The class I've been with has sorta been my saving grace throughout this, and just everyone that I've met along the way that made the TJ I've known so familiar and homely. Thanks guys. If you're reading this, then I think I gotta thank you too for knowing me whether you like it ☺
Oops my train of thought has been disrupted by mom cuz of camera problem hahh sighhhhh cameraaaaaa

Monkeyoats ☺

To a girl who has stood by me and understood me for a considerable amount of time, 2009 and beyond.
I'm so grateful we keep in touch w satellites and iPhones and all ☀ Happy 18th I owe you a birthday hug!!!!!
Flashback to the nights when QM had to rearrange all the camp things, the tiny cupboard and mega loads of cardboard boxes to stuff into it at the holding school.
The time we stayed back after school in sec 3 to make the prettiest (legit) boxes for Leader Lydia and Stella with Rachel and drew things on the board and had paper moustaches coz we were hip like triangles even bfr we knew it.
We wore the flower necklace thingies and went around and took pictures at the Esplanade rooftop til dark.
Yummy ramen for which I am craving right now (!!!)
❤❤❤

They said nostalgia was a dangerous thing but I guess a little bit of reminiscing does do good for the soul.
It's 11:11 and hope your dreams come true!!

Last day of school

It must take a lot of guts to turn tables turn fates turn the path that seems set for you.
There seems to be so many others out there who want it more than I, and I am... Just here.
I just want to be able to do smth that I won't regret

Happy birthday Deonn, being friends since Orientation makes me really grateful, and blog buddies ✌. Do your best and no regrets too okay!! ❤

Tres thankful for my lovely lovely team I really can't thank them enough I love them all vvvv much; Ket Vik Rach Charm Cheryl Shirlyne you guys are one of a kind and sparkle like the sun. LOVE YOU GUYZ will meet w y'all soon. And for Rachel's hugs whenevs I see her
Anw it was a good idea to hang in the LT, lasts are really significant. And the piano deserves a gold star right haha it's pretty ☺☺☺ TJ has been such an insulated place drenched in familiarity in every nook and cranny
It hasn't been one heck of an emotional ride as I would've hoped, because studies have drained me of emotions yet.. Idk I'm blindly stressing myself out.
Miss last year cos it was amazing and I guess there was just lots more interaction but it's probably the same for everyone, will miss this year because this few terms w the class girls have been good as well. I won't have it any other way. I do hope we all do well tgt. Sigh the future that we have looked at as our end goal is so close now.

☎

Usually I hate phone calls but this one was alright. ☺


This week is tough.
Certain smells remind me of certain places certain faces certain moments

"Find something you love to do, So you won't have to work a day in your life anymore."

Midway 30+

Meet a while w weeps talked a bit, and then splurged on pretty things hopefully to keep the momentum cuz I have to. Ice honey because my throat's hurting and it's been more than twelve hours. This feeling sux badly
It feels like everyone's so down. And haze wasn't feeling too good herself today sigh. And my Godma gave me some stress relieving scent thing; maybe it's a placebo but I do feel good aft smelling it hahaha maybe I'll spray it on everyone in skewl. ✌

Still reeling a bit from econs such a stupid girl

Froze in time

1. Feeling like a rusty machine. Lots of input and hypothetical oil, yet little marbles of output that is being barfed out when it's supposed to be massive giants of white fluffy cotton candy bigass rocket ship wtvs
2. Max out
3. Keep calm and carry on.

Currently raving abt She Wolf by David Guetta/ Sia, good work out music potential, the stuff never gets old. I can sing it for you if you want
Hahahaha jay kayzz

Pieces

The big red button in movies where you press to abort a mission sounds pretty tempting right now.... Crabcakes this is a friggin real problem and I'm taking all the wrong methods to solve it.
XXX
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Urgh I know I could've gotten a grade higher for all my subs. The funniest thing is how high I had my hopes up at first only to let it crash down again. Good job again to me. I'm too scared to sleep anymore. And econs is just.... There. Disgusting disappointment.
Maybe sometimes I just live in self denial too much, like I keep thinking of myself; oh I got this in the bag I can do this shet easy peasy. And then I don't. And I feel crappish for letting math slip like sand from my grasp. Ahznsjwksosna