the tzatziki. and some kids.

This is my previous blog title summed up in an image. 

I love the onion and chives wrap from Mission ☺☺☺☺

Went back to Pathlight the other day n was pleasantly surprised when my quiet student was up on stage, reading his essay aloud to an audience. An actual audience. The tiny guy can barely be seen standing on the podium. I love the progress there made by Sandalwood ❤

They're having their most impt exams in a few weeks' time alr :')

And Ms Siti- whom I had lunch w in the canteen, along with the rest of the lovely P6s 

tzatziki ways starting today

• reading <the happiness project> by gretchen rubin and it indeed makes me happy heh heh. really inspiring and i've been using the procrastination trick (basically just not procrastinating on doing menial tasks which i'm guilty of)
• collating recipes which i really must execute........ <eat yourself skinny> showcases the prettiest pinterest-worthy healthy food, while <i don't go to the gym> and <a bitchin' kitchen> are other note-worthy sites. but i think all i'm really looking for is the desire to actually steam veggies and have a dollop of condiments to blow the senses. lazy factor
• i rly should not be stressing out all the time
• i cannot skip my 5x/week runs noooooo
• rebooting my blogilates regime (why did i stop it in the first place) (time and lack of space) (need an empty room with wifi) (/schizo)
• regret having the meiji honeydew ice cream it tastes bad real bad
• i'm glad my hardcore worry binges stopped. saw hwee min while running ytd at bedok stn, i was wearing the same shirt i wore when we ran tgt the other time (that was the last time we ran even though we promised we would meet up often hahahahaha story of my life 5eva). so glad to see her + wanted to tell her i finally am stopping my stupid ways n finally taking care of myself just a little bit better.
• kinda do feel better in hindsight.
• ok thanks 4 reading :-)

+ + + + + + + positivity + + + + + + + +
even though i still have an annoying pot belly filled with past processed food i carelessly ingested, gotta live w the consequences but glad for the *hopefully* healthy grub i will eat for the rest of my life
going out for the occasional meal doesn't seem as daunting as it used to be
p.s: my tuna sandwich filling has saved my life for the past week or so now. working miracles for my meal times.

ready.

The MPH book sale at expo w Matilda bfr sundown registration 

Yielded me this book which I'm reading right now and it's really amazing because I'm learning a lot and cannot wait to squeeze more knowledge out of these pages. 

If you think about the middle phrase it actually unravels so much about life. 

And the third one, well. My family takes the brunt of it and matters between my expectations and their actions still don't gel as much. Idk when all will be okay. I have more conversations w the doc rather than my own mum (-____-)

I don't even blehhhhhghajzksns

"Enjoying now." What a better time to enjoy life than now, when it can actually be enjoyed???? Maybe I just need to read up on a few good blogs, make better meals, take the time off from stresses, volunteer, plan my eat pray love adventure. 

The days are long but the years are short. People don't often realise that the goal they want to attain doesn't bring them the happiness, rather it is the process of achieving it that does!!! 

"

Sometimes you need to remind yourself that you were the one who carried you through the heartache. You are the one who sits with the cold body on the shower floor, and picks it up. You are the one who feeds it, who clothes it, who tucks it into bed, and you should be proud of that. Having the strength to take care of yourself when everyone around you is trying to bleed you dry, that is the strongest thing in the universe.

Want/need

1. Halloween Horror Night!!!!

2. Quick trip to random Asian countries 

❤

Nice t meet you again

Tq tq for being my bedfriend 4 lyf 

"Ok let's pretend we're talking."

Can I c u more often so I can bitch about you here in my blog????

Met Jolene in her tiny enclave @ kr, had to go around nus in shuttle bus prior to and after that. Feeling like a traveller in such a big place as the nus campus. Must be what it feels like to explore the unknown territory

Uni is actually very real and happening to everybody. Everyone and no one realises it!!! 

Lunch w JJ at the FASS campus w cheap good food

Explored

KR

Utown (CAPT)!!!

Dinner at capt w monkeyoats the hall was grand and beautiful

Free ice cream was served and it only makes me luv the campus even more, together w the friendly people. 

Supernova which is amazing!!!!!! Love the botanic gardens concert feeling

Eusoff 

Supper at Ameem

Cardz which was epic hazel was crying bc of me 

Utown obamaself // Claire 

Great frenz ❤❤❤

A walking travesty

Still have so much to know about myself. 

Today:

Seeing how much sacrifice and love mummy has for me is... Gratifying and anguishing all at once. The fact that I cannot do a lot for her yet she does, me. I still can't love people as I have not learnt to love myself yet. I don't know how long it will take. 

Wrt food- I think some stress factors might have caused me to relapse. But I will tell myself it is only a tiny setback. I will continue to make my own meals without faulting & w complete diligence. 

Recipe #0001

Tuna Filling for the TuNa SaNdWiCh

1 can water packed tuna

4 T plain yogurt

Some chopped onions

S+P ☺☺☺

Can I just say the most emotional experience with food ever???? Almost cried because I felt that I just made the perfect tuna filling, without mayonnaise yet it tastes so good!!!!

I initially was dubious about plonking sweet yogurt into the tuna mash, but it turned out to be adding only a slight sweetness to it--- ahhhhh please try this to save your life

It's cheap

It takes 15 mins in the kitchen (tops) 

It saves you unwanted calories because there are no hidden sneaky ingredients in the food (Lard??? Oil??? Fats??)

"nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" is bullpoop 

bc this tastes like skinny. 

yours until the mountains crumble to the sea // color run

totally in love w <baby i'm yours> by the <arctic monkeys>, and hence the blog title.

the smooth jazzy tones brings spirits up u_u

attended the first-ever colour run yesterday w samantha loke.

the tickets sold out so quickly but i rmbd i vigilantly stood by my computer until the ticket sales opened at 3.00pm and then waited for the ten minute delay before getting it. i think jas n jodi were at my place planning the tw trip!!

all worth it.

and i bought the tickets for sam too. heh. although the color run is def enjoyed w more company to infect each other w craziness with (next year guyz), sam was being a cheapo and come to think of it we did pay fifty bucks for the experience so we might as well

• use the marathon cups to collect powder and sprinkle it over ourselves
• sit on the floor to get color on our pants

• take photos at every color interval

• walk past the red color rly fast b/c it's such a strong color and it makes us look bloody. then the color combination would be swell.
• take photos at the beach

• walk, period. 1.5 hr for five km bitchaz ~O~
• collect the end-of-run powder
• collect banana

• collect 100plus
• buy color run bag (me me me)

and i had much fun showering after that because the water is a light pretty magenta color.

this is my #potd hahahahaha sam has some good eye for older men srsly- but not in a creepy bad way
(she got this rly cool dude to take a photo of us and we were surprised he could work the iphone camera!!!

)

potd: they are japanese-looking malaysians that can't rly speak english but like all marathons, strangers become friends and we are so lucky bc they had extra powder so we spammed quite a number of shots w it.

"scuse me, could u pour powder over us while we take a photo?" ☺☺☺

besides the color run, hate to be sounding so self-absorbed and ughhhhierughir (can't find an appropriate term) but i am glad i managed to clock in a few consecutive days of running in the neighborhood.
it's always a weird timing of 2000hr, but it has been successful for a few nights already and i am determined to keep this up until great eastern womens run and beyond. i managed to jog to penny university, past the garden slug then uphill towards olps then feeling the cool floaty downhill breeze of the megasteep slope. the scariest road run i've ever done but discovering new routes to run always makes it much more enjoyable.

as for the terrible bingeing problem which has plagued me and eaten me from my inside since maybe the start of the year, i've only the lord to thank as i find my footing and try my hand at making meals w nutritional value. i am going to love this process and find out for myself that great meals are healthy meals.
need to inject some positivity within me to flush away those negative thoughts about food.
if you're reading this and having crazy mad stress in tackling sugar-laden foods, remember that sugar only gives you a temporary rush of feel-good hormones, and it makes you more tired after. and it makes you stupid. sugar is evil as a comic book villain - and yes too saturated w health book information right now.
but i managed to stay away from those pineapple tarts on the dining table which painfully tempts me everyday i walk past it, and the heavenly meiji ice-cream bars in the refrigerator for four days and counting. usually i would cave in and mindlessly polish everything in sight.
gotta maintain this for next year when i'm taunted with the ever-sinful hall food and cold weather which might lock my lazy ass in the house for maybe ever.

/oh and i've had a bit of time thinking back to jc days; how i've acted around people, what i wished i would have done better to hold it all together. looking back in a third person pov, i would think the past rebecca was too obsessed w what people thought of her and the people whom she stuck with or never got to know. labels were inevitably tagged on every student there and the past rebecca shouldn't have cared about it so much, really. it's so different right now, out here. none of the school politics really matters anymore, and all we have to do to thrive here is just to be nice to every single person you see. i know it wasn't like that in school at all. can't really change the past, though i wish i could so life could be a little bit more :-))))/

went w dad to the natas travel fair. 4 dollars paid upon entry and in the expo, crazy mega structures that separate each booth. and just a flood of lights from every corner, and deals advertised like they were cheap consumer items. i found a stupendously cheap bkk deal: 88$ for 3D free and easy!!!!!!! but ofc they wouldn't. looking out for hong kong deals instead, but i still would love to try faraway lands one day, with or without a travel buddy.
if all goes well, there will be a holiday trip to sydney in sept and i'm excited to experience australia.
and bhutan in december
hong kong in january w jasmine and unidentified person(s)
a destination w claire
and so thankful sydney the girl, debs, weiling and jan and crystalline are so game for a quick getaway!!!!
so hungry for a trip to europe or usa though ahhhhhrrrrrrghghrh

{throw} bananas {back}

mr hafiz n ms rozi were super sneaky about this picture, i remember.
and i can never forget the great color combination that has been occurring for a few times in the short time span that we were there. miss the really great teachers
can't wait to c the kidz on 29th aug when i am ninja-ing into campus two as a volunteer and not an intern anymore. art science museum + kids!!!!!
\o/ \o/ \o/

National Anthem

☺Coincidence I think not-

Whatever it is Happy National Day

If the google maps satellite were to capture this island now all it would see is literally a little red dot k

Come to a realization that this would be the last National Day that will happen in Singapore, so was rly determined to make it the bessssst and in retrospect it was pretty awsm coz

✌ JC GIRLS SUPPORT ✌

Glad they were willing to form adventurous traveling momos w me

1. Missed CT stop and went to Outram instead so we had to make a u-turn. Was trying to find photos on FB hahahaha

2. Ricciotti closed but we were supposed to go there for dinner (Today paper is a letdown)

3. Walked from Chinatown to Clarke Quay and had the old school ice cream - adventurous yet not so adv when I couldn't handle the peppermint choc chip and had to trade w Jas for her raspberry ripple hahaha

4. Night skies

5. Dense crowds

6. Singapore skyline

7. Most epic Subway dinner wherein we swore 8.30 would be the fireworks display but it turned out to be 8.15 and to cut a long story short, we missed it. Most heartbreaking story of my life

(;-; )

8. While we were walking back to the City Hall Stn, one lone firework burst through the sky. We watched firework (singular)

Catchphrase of the day:

We need to re-evaluate our lives. 

Out

Six flags disneyland universal studios
Whatever it is, the desire to escape from sg is no joke hahaha rlywanna make use of these precious mths like what everyone says i shd do!!!!

Walking and waffles

Surreal moment at Wimbly's today with a meet up with the most un-meetup-able people namely Hazel and Marcus and super bz girl Jasmine

Really miss the old times/ we're growing up and glee's starting to get obsolete because they can't do it without Cory Monteith they just can't. And all these is really unrelated but glee's kinda been my late-teenage TV show obsession and his passing is still so unreal & significant 

I mean his battle with addiction is so human and relatable. We all have addictions and cravings we cannot control and sometimes after working hard to keep it at bay you let your guard down for a little while and that which you've been fighting so hard suddenly comes at you mercilessly at full blast. 

// :-) stuff I should do w my life

☺ Hey Paige you deserve to be happy ok!! Pls say when you're free so I can pass you your taiwan box okay

At the back seat: with Charmay at the floating platform- loving the atmosphere!!!

Chilling w jasmine at Quiznos: we should've taken a picture of us holding ice cubes but since we didn't I subbed in a TW shot

What's more to life than driving lessons and promises to head back to the clinic (but no really) 

Dreams remain dreams.

The Beitou Hotspring experience

First time OOTDs (hashtagged)

Excitedly taking pictures outside the Hello Kitty Cafe in Da'an. We took two separate occasions to find this gem, only succeeding on the second time. And then Jodi and JJ broke the news that we needed a reservation to dine. Heartbreak!!! Into a million pieces. 

Shifen: lantern releasing. We bought the four-colours one and wrote random deep English quotes on each side- only Jodi wrote her true wishes hehe. Shi Fen is beautiful and has it's rustic charm!!! It is centered around the train tracks and the shophouses all line up neatly at the spaces adjacent to these tracks. It's a pretty small place actually, but so pretty to visit. ☺

They had these cool things at Shi Fen too!!! Cool things aka I've no clue what it is. It had writings all over it. Dayum, ignorance 

The Zhong Zheng Memorial Hall; made pretty thanks to VSCOcam ☺☺☺ and the clouds ☁☁☁. What a combo. There, we unintentionally snooped around and got to experience a candy exhibition which needed an admission fee to enter. Yay for yolo moments

Ximending!! Was disappointing but we got to try Mian xian and other awsm TW street snacks like mochi, high-quality milk ice cream, risotto, and more bub tea. 

Another Zhong Zheng Memorial temple structure which housed wonderful TWnese bubble tea

Didn't post about the Taiwan trip. It was an awsm experience, meeting at the airport being all excited, discovering our hostel environment, meeting nice Taiwanese people, JJ introducing us to her fave Taiwanese snacks, traveling by train and JJ having her public transport syndrome wherein she will laugh at the un-funniest things. Us always trying to have a HTHT but I think I alw end up sleeping quickly. One night I slept on the bed with a comb in hand. I had wanted to blow dry my hair 

Pesto is pretty darn good.