whatever you hold in your mind on a consistent basis is exactly what you will experience in your life 

1. i know little battles are won when my dad says: •he wants to try vegan food for lunch today •the only meat he had was fish porridge •roasted chickpeas taste nice and that i should make more

this is coming from typical dad aka meat-lover/《get your protein from meat》 human. my dad is secretly my only target for change because I inadvertently feel worried for his diet. knowing what meat can do to us scares me to death and there is a lot of swirling negative emotions based on this but ill be out of this!! because sometimes it is to be recognized that anger stems only from love and why not just remove this angry layer and do the things that you do just based simply on love? most often i place really high expectations on my family and i have felt a lot of anger from this because family is the golden jewel that should be heavily guarded and them not doing things my way gets me angry a lot. i didnt know how to control this, but 2014 has taught me to be a less angry, more sympathetic person. i was just a really angry person with intentions that were innately good. just that the good in these intentions were lost in that outer layer of negativity. 

this is a first time acknowledging this and σ^_^; acknowledgement in itself makes me see things better. 

2. yesterday i got to see the girls that have seen me at my ~worst~. my jc friends and my pathlight friends. never really did realize the comfort that surrounds me during my days in tjc until now. the feeling is really good though, i feel at peace with my past self so i can better my present self

3. last year, i did yoga with jasmine and i wasnt in a very good mindset/shape. i did yoga based very much on the instructions given and not in the rhythm of my motions. it makes a difference for me because i often felt distressed and alarmed that i cant follow with the right timing of the instructor. calmly doing yoga according to my actions though, made it more enjoyable because i can appreciate the stretches. i also managed to do the longest crow pose in my life at the yoga session this year. the crow pose was something that daunted me ever since tennis training at tj. i was trying my very hardest to perfect it in syds. i was getting there, but not quite yet. it is in the tiniest achievements that i feel most grateful for.

this feels like home to me ( ´ ▽ ` )

thank you good quality camera +_+

here's a few moments captured during the days that passed; 

the minimalist baker ( minimalistbaker.com ) has CRAZY good delicious bakes and i just want to bake them all during this summer, maybe stick them on the fridge and throw it around to people..... ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

things like one-bowl cookies or <10 ingredient mains just appeal to me because i know it's quick and the less there is in your food, th better it is because less nasties!!

it's comforting to be around with them cuz.... our first vegan baking experience was last year and it was an absolute success!!! sorta. we had a choc avocado ganache tart and i videoed the epic moment when we were cutting a slice out but the almond base would just crumble. twas my special first non-bake baking session (⌒▽⌒)!! im also looking forward to learning about food from evelyn cuz dietetics woohoo!! *\(^o^)/*

sg skyline is pERF specially when the view is shared with gud fran

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i'm just feeling the great significance of this eventless sunday. ive been wanting to show my family why i've been so pro-plant based and everything, and today was the day i mustered up my courage and told them "let's watch a document" and at first they weren't present in the moment until i sorta persisted and told them it was life-changing and my dad rly helped by setting up the television and made sure the sound worked... but anyway yes!! the documentary is Forks Over Knives and i know by saying that it changed my life, would mean that people would be skeptical about it. i was pleasantly surprised when my dad actually seemed keen to go on a plant-based journey. prior to this, i felt that it would mean more than anything for me if he experienced how amazing it is. it felt like i had wanted it more than he did. after the show, we seemed like we were on equal footing on this. i felt quite emotional when i saw this father who had 26 clinical problems including diabetes and hbp and lethargy at the start of the show, just being transformed to this guy who had a lot more vitality and he had fkng abs and he does weights now and he runs and looks amazing you can really see this difference. he had a belly. he could only slept 4 hours daily. he had a plethora of medication pills all over his bathroom table. all he did was go plant-based. the solution was so glaringly simple, it's criminal

imagining that this could happen to my dad and ofc to all my family members would be... my dream. hahahahahaha i dont even comprehend how my dreams would involve other people but the world works like that and his strength that he regained from stopping the pills made me cry a bit buuuuuuut that's just really cuz i feel that he reminded me of my dad a bit. my dad being diagnosed with arthritis recently made me feel that it's time to do something for my family that i've so long neglected— to do something that would help him recover, and this is fucking it i need to get my shit together and do it like i mean it. i have to be empowered so i can empower my family and in doing so would make me feel more passionate about it. right now, i rly feel that the world is in need of serious plant-based inspiration because did you know cancer can be reversed if you only eat veggies and fruit and legumes and no meat??? honestly, acknowledging this got a lot out of me. having to change what you have believed all your life is honestly not an easy thing. having to change your diet is even worse. there will be downfalls, they are there for a reason. i believe that i have let myself down enough times by emotional eating and at times, being weak and non-expressive until my opinion doesnt get acknowledged by my own self because im busy acknowledging anothers'. it's about time i stand strong for what i love and believe in and love this journey and understand myself better each and every day and in doing so, inspiring others to find what's good for them.

hi lovely close friends, thank you for reading my posts all this while, you are so special to me (╥﹏╥)

google Forks Over Knives documentary addict and the first link they give is the streaming link heh. go watch it with your family you will honestly be a vegan i swear. this was the documentary that probably sealed the deal for me, i was just too afraid of imposing my views becoz i didnt want to be superior and shit but it's got to happen because what's in the documentary are facts that deserve to be known by more people of the earth （ ;  ; ）

boxing day chillin'

26.12.14

when you were talking about your sweetest memories being in cedar and the important people in your life having come from there made me think of the ~great~ memories the school years gave to me. i think i was far too silly and self-absorbed in my "troubles" to even see the blessings that were around me!!! but now i do!! it feels bitterly nostalgic that today felt like one of those days when we were 16 and talking about our perspective about life to each other as we try to figure things out by ourselves. the only difference was that today's musings was very much more grown up and forward looking. but youre still the same old xy and that is comforting :"( lolol funny thing coz i feel so happy for you, sometimes i feel like crying. i gotta talk myself through my emotions......

other times i just want to set a fire to the memories of my past selves because why did i ever think my problems were bigger than what i could solve???? hahahahahahahaha

in uni, it seems like everyone you meet has their own self-kept priorities. you meet them for a few hours each day, talk academics then continue to living your own life. in sec sch/ jc, friends were your life!!! you would purposely spend ridic long hours in school because friends were just so important. in uni, it seems difficult to let people in to your life, and vice versa.

we were both enlightened by this and finally understood how uni seems a lot more foreign and detached. it makes a lot of sense, though!

christmas eve dreams

1. a great stepping stone to looking for the good things in life is realizing placing your self-worth in instagram likes is total junk!!!! you'll never be satisfied in that way.

2. on the mrt talking to jodi. glad she could share some nice insights into her buddhism practice. that was nice to hear. and i was pleasantly surprised at her being pleasantly surprised when i asked her to talk about her practice, because it was something she was passionate about, yet all this while i just kind of over-looked it as 'oh she's going to her soka practice again'. little did i realize how much love, effort and resources she puts in her commitment to the community simply because she is proud of being a buddhist. i always was afraid of just judgement from strangers- it's a horrible unfounded fear i had since it was cultivated years ago. it was rare for me, yesterday, to be so engrossed in the conversation that i didn't feel at all intimidated by my environment nor the brief heuristic judgement other people have towards me. it's really just a terrible thing and i'm glad that through realizing myself, this fear need not be aggravated anymore. i don't need to have the fear of something i cannot control.

3. spent most of last night in the kitchen, smelling of granola, my hands sticky with the goodness of raw vegan delights. this christmas is the first i think, that i've put much thought into. it's my first christmas as a (proud) vegan. last year i made this cashew cream cake with my sister. although i wouldn't have called myself a vegan then. i was quite afraid of judgement so i suppressed the thoughts of radically changing my diet and being all controversial and shit. but i think 2014 has made me a lot more comfortable with my decisions. i've been thinking a lot about influencing every one around me so if i do a good job at being a vegan, maybe some good vibes would rub off on them too. i have three months to do this!!! something to do to keep me occupied with, thank heavens #^-^#

1. today was hanging around with family lots and there would ofc always be this stupid subconscious voice bitterly saying how i'm neglecting friends and i should rly have sum friends to go out with but see, it's just another absolutely unnecessary thought that is meant to be destroyed and never remembered!!!!!!! that's my mindset right now.
2. there was so much plant-based happening today, i'm overloaded with joy. for one, my mom decided that dinner should include roasted cauliflowers with tumeric because she likes it. and we had that and it was just the best thing ever (the food was good and the intention behind it was even greater). the kitchen was truly a sight to behold. it has always been kind of sparse and empty but today there was lots of good food and it seemed occupied- just how it is supposed to be. dinner was suuuuuuuuh good i had leftover brown rice yesterday and i tossed it with coconut oil, onions and leftover capsicums and cherry tomatoes and i had salmon because my mom bought beautiful chunks of it back from our ntuc trip today and she said it tasted rly good and it did taste amazeballez. i made like 5 or so batches of granola today. it's my xmas present to the family because i can't bear to send them store-bought foods that probably every other human does for every other human and knowing that big companies don't give a shizzle for the wellbeing of consumers irks me til no end and it's my way of fighting it and being fully dependent on myself is the better option. i still feel the need for action for the world to see that the only thing they need for sustenance is themselves & not food chains restricting them with only serving what they have on that menu and people only see the price of food/its description and based their choices on that but fail to consider maybe the way that the food was prepared or maybe in what condition that animal was when it was alive a lot of strong feels tbh not so much for being virtuous and saving animals but rly, the health of people consuming dangerous things.
3. i am grateful that i am able to hold conversations with my sis, my mom, my dad. i am grateful that i feel so free from my destructive thoughts because i am able to finally see the compassion in others and not just be focused on myself i feel like a whooping lunatic becoz i really do see the world with brand new eyes it's a world i've never actually seen before it's a whole new perspective it's a good one, definitely. it's a blessing.

How to Ruin Your Life (without even noticing that you are)

Understand that life is not a straight line. Life is not a set timeline of milestones. It is okay if you don’t finish school, get married, find a job that supports you, have a family, make money, and live comfortably all by this age, or that age. It’s okay if you do, as long as you understand that if you’re not married by 25, or a Vice President by 30 — or even happy, for that matter — the world isn’t going to condemn you. You are allowed to backtrack. You are allowed to figure out what inspires you. You are allowed time, and I think we often forget that. We choose a program right out of high school because the proper thing to do is to go straight to University. We choose a job right out of University, even if we didn’t love our program, because we just invested time into it. We go to that job every morning because we feel the need to support ourselves abundantly. We take the next step, and the next step, and the next step, thinking that we are fulfilling some checklist for life, and one day we wake up depressed. We wake up stressed out. We feel pressured and don’t know why. That is how you ruin your life.

You ruin your life by choosing the wrong person. What is it with our need to fast-track relationships? Why are we so enamored with the idea of first becoming somebody’s rather than somebodies? Trust me when I say that a love bred out of convenience, a love that blossoms from the need to sleep beside someone, a love that caters to our need for attention rather than passion, is a love that will not inspire you at 6am when you roll over and embrace it. Strive to discover foundational love, the kind of relationship that motivates you to be a better man or woman, the kind of intimacy that is rare rather than right there. “But I don’t want to be alone,” we often exclaim. Be alone. Eat alone, take yourself on dates, sleep alone. In the midst of this you will learn about yourself. You will grow, you will figure out what inspires you, you will curate your own dreams, your own beliefs, your own stunning clarity, and when you do meet the person who makes your cells dance, you will be sure of it, because you are sure of yourself. Wait for it. Please, I urge you to wait for it, to fight for it, to make an effort for it if you have already found it, because it is the most beautiful thing your heart will experience.

You ruin your life by letting your past govern it. It is common for certain things in life to happen to you. There will be heartbreak, confusion, days where you feel like you aren’t special or purposeful. There are moments that will stay with you, words that will stick. You cannot let these define you – they were simply moments, they were simply words. If you allow for every negative event in your life to outline how you view yourself, you will view the world around you negatively. You will miss out on opportunities because you didn’t get that promotion five years ago, convincing yourself that you were stupid. You will miss out on affection because you assumed your past love left you because you weren’t good enough, and now you don’t believe the man or the woman who urges you to believe you are. This is a cyclic, self-fulfilling prophecy. If you don’t allow yourself to move past what happened, what was said, what was felt, you will look at your future with that lens, and nothing will be able to breach that judgment. You will keep on justifying, reliving, and fueling a perception that shouldn’t have existed in the first place.

You ruin your life when you compare yourself to others. The amount of Instagram followers you have does not decrease or increase your value. The amount of money in your bank account will not influence your compassion, your intelligence, or your happiness. The person who has two times more possessions than you does not have double the bliss, or double the merit. We get caught up in what our friends are liking, who our significant others are following, and at the end of the day this not only ruins our lives, but it also ruins us. It creates within us this need to feel important, and in many cases we often put others down to achieve that.

You ruin your life by desensitizing yourself. We are all afraid to say too much, to feel too deeply, to let people know what they mean to us. Caring is not synonymous with crazy. Expressing to someone how special they are to you will make you vulnerable. There is no denying that. However, that is nothing to be ashamed of. There is something breathtakingly beautiful in the moments of smaller magic that occur when you strip down and are honest with those who are important to you. Let that girl know that she inspires you. Tell your mother you love her in front of your friends. Express, express, express. Open yourself up, do not harden yourself to the world, and be bold in who, and how, you love. There is courage in that.

You ruin your life by tolerating it. At the end of the day you should be excited to be alive. When you settle for anything less than what you innately desire, you destroy the possibility that lives inside of you, and in that way you cheat both yourself and the world of your potential. The next Michelangelo could be sitting behind a Macbook right now writing an invoice for paperclips, because it pays the bills, or because it is comfortable, or because he can tolerate it. Do not let this happen to you. Do not ruin your life this way. Life and work, and life and love, are not irrespective of each other. They are intrinsically linked. We have to strive to do extraordinary work, we have to strive to find extraordinary love. Only then will we tap into an extraordinarily blissful life.

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I took this from thought catalog because when i first read it through my insides were wanting to woop, scream and cry all at the same time. it was a magnificent and chilling feeling because this semester/year has been ALL ABOUT THISSSSSSSSSS. i was too afraid of reflecting what i felt inside- i was always afraid bad things would happen if i felt 'too happy'. i self-destruct on a daily basis and very often compare myself with other people and look at their instagram follower counter and no of likes they receive and based my self-worth on that. honestly something i only controlled more recently.... but i did it. i rid myself of all this negativity and it feels fcking liberating and wonderful to be freed from the chains of your dark inner thoughts.

inner thoughts don't have to be dark at all. in fact, we don't have to believe that we are born broken and in need of salvation. we are born perfect and there is nothing to feel terrible about to begin with. feeling shitty is a personal choice. so don't choose that option. the world looks so beautiful without dark thoughts. life is meant to be simple to handle and there is no need to complicate things and get yourself in a muddle because you don't dig holes for yourself to be buried in. you face each obstacle strong and head-on because you have the capacity to do so, no matter what circumstance you are in.

haha, scrolling through some previous posts, reminding myself that it is a new day every day. yesterday's worries should not be brought on to today, because we are reborn every time the sun rises. i am only going to write positive things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this space has no fcking room for negative vibes.

1. today i went to the beach to run. it has become almost a daily affair ever since i came back to sg and damn it's the best feeling in the world. i've been asking my dad to go to the beach so that he can clock in 6000 steps. 6k steps every day cures arthritis! the beach is always really beautiful, even at 11am in the afternoon. today there were many families who had pitched tents. i ran past them casually strolling at the beach. i think that the family that sweats together, sticks together. hehe that was the feeling i got through running today. there was a lot of love within the families and i was smiling through it all. there was one family with a physically disabled daughter and her dad was carrying her in his arms, with many family members around them. i felt the girl was extremely blessed to have a loving family beside her, providing her with new experiences, new places. i was thinking a lot about how to convert my family to plant-based and i would love to know about food psychology and how people determine what food they eat. i would start first by telling them that losing meat from your diet is not the point. the point is that you gain so much from plant foods. wealth of health, wellness, learning to appreciate nature, learning about real food, experimentation, knowledge that leads to better choice in the long run. oh, and the long run. all things good in the long run. nature heals all ills and dis-ease.

2. i saw my sister rummaging through the fridge, deciding on what to eat. i told her "i'm going to make some sushi okay, take some". in the end, she helped me shred the carrots and mash the avocado while i roasted broccoli and tomatoes, made the brown rice + vinegar mix and rolled and made the sushi (in vain). i felt like fireworks crackling and exploding as i see her eating the carrot strands with the salty flavoured coconut oil left over from the roast. we both can't eat raw avocadoes, but mashed avos complemented the sushi so well. i was so glad she actually had more sushi than i did. knowing i had stopped her from choosing a processed nutrientless snack made me feel incredible and ecstatic. knowing she liked it made me feel over the moon!!!!!! it was a perfect stay-in rainy evening and bonding over sushi making made this saturday really, really great. i've been making spinach pancakes for breakfast as often as possible and i luvvvvvv it. so do my parents. which makes me glad.
through this sem, practicing conscious eating has been a huge part of my life because i believe in its capabilities in healing the body. it has been a wonderful thing and honestly i've gained a lot from it.

3. my third gratitude bullet point goes to yiyin and our dinner conversation at seizeriya (siberia????). i really embraced it and there's not a lot i can say. except that i am grateful!!!!!

consciously;

“Perhaps in the back of our minds we already understand, without all the science I've discussed, that something terribly wrong is happening. Our sustenance now comes from misery. We know that if someone offers to show us a film on how our meat is produced, it will be a horror film. We perhaps know more than we care to admit, keeping it down in the dark places of our memory-- disavowed. When we eat factory-farmed meat we live, literally, on tortured flesh. Increasingly, that tortured flesh is becoming our own.”

― Jonathan Safran Foer, "Eating Animals"

1. no nasties yesterday. after i came back from a trip to ntuc, i invited bren and dee to my house and i had them some baked goods- potato thins and bananas for dessert (THOSE DIRTY GIRLSSsssSSSs they couldnt stop laughing) oh and apart from baked things, some stir-fried as well. coconut oil stir fry always satisfies my tummy

i was glad that i didnt opt for the usual singapore fare, its the more social thing to do but i think what i really really want is to cook all day all meals because i dont need to put other people in charge of my own nourishment 

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singapore is greatly greatly missed. 

"which one do you love most? singapore or sydney?" tbh they both have their strong suits. ive gotten used to the sydney lifestyle yet now that im in singapore i feel that it's time to stop lollygagging about/ brooding about how sydney is greatly missed. it's time to start making the best use of my time here and get these irrelevant unnecessary negative emotions out of my system. singapore is highly regarded in the eyes of millions of people (which is why it's so populated) and it's up to me to discover the beauty of where i am right now ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ

2. im glowing with pride when i see bren/ deonn growing to be more of themselves, departing from the old 'self' that they were in TJ. and everyone agreeing how life is so different now but it's so much better (hands up for me bc i cant disgree) and telling bren about life thus far made my night a lot better.

being able to regard your thoughts as something significant does a lot better for coming to terms with certain things.

3. i was appalled at the state of my fridge at home ROTTING GARLIC ONIONS AND MYSTERIOUS LIQUID. usually i cant clean/ dislike cleaning bc it gets my hands dirty (...) BUT THIS, I HAVE TO CLEAN. i understand myself to be the person whos not the first person to step up and do house chores but ever since the final checkout and moving in to the new apartment, i realize that some things you just gotta get yo shit together and do the dirties. 

i got to store some newly bought vegs and fruit after that （≧∇≦）

i would so love to make bean stew or something from the forks over knives recipe list!!! it would be so perfect 

8 december

today was a busy day, interestingly one of the busiest i had in a while. studying doesn't come close to this!! i went to officeworks and ikea to get furniture for my new apartment together with pei and mag. they have been amazing and comfortable to be with. they were sweet and allowed me to choose what to have for lunch, and i HAD to choose lentil as anything because it was pay as much as you want! i felt it was something they would have liked because it was an interesting concept. i for one am an absolute fan of this place. today i had a set lunch menu that was far more satisfying than when i went previously. the food today??? TOTES AMAZING i had portions of mag's one because she chose a curry platter that wasnt to her liking. i told her i could eat anything veg/vegan. 

i was packing my stuff today and chanced upon the envelop from the national skin centre for allowance to bring my antibiotics to sydney. i opened it out of curiosity as to what it said and i saw the term acne vulgaris. i had acne vulgaris nine months ago and i needed to bring a pack of what was probably 20 aluminium packs of erythromycin with me. i remember the worry my mom and i shared in the clinic whilst discussing it with my dermatologist. i was worried my skin wouldnt react too well with the weather and would break out terribly. my mom placed an order for more erythromycin for me, although this antibiotic is not allowed to be prescribed for more than three months without consulting the derma. there was so much hurt and frustration at myself at that time. not knowing why my body acted like this, in such a terrible, painful way. i remember being so desperate for a solution. i remember i was a firm believer of science, not nature. i did not yet understand the holistic benefits of healthy wholefoods, i only understood that if you take xx product, you can see results sooner or later. it was only sometime later that i chanced upon the dodgy ad, proclaiming the benefits of a radical change in diet into the plant based diet. the results, if true however, were MIRACULOUS. people in the before pictures had acne worse than mine, but the after pictures were commendable, and one even added that his skin that never been better in his entire life. 

it has been a fucking hard journey to accept who i really am. (last time i swore off vulgarities but i believe that it really helps to emphasize the point and is hence useful in monologues / informal posts such as these). i cried so much, i aimed the hurt and the discomfort at myself instead of others bc i was moral. bc i was afraid of losing people. binge eating my troubles away only added fuel to the fire. this is so ironic. life is an awful irony, really!!!! 

somehow along the way though, positive changes happened. haha, i didnt really notice it at the point in time, but i changed what i put in my body. i made a conscious effort eg not to buy the pandan waffles at the cake shop after work. i packed lunch which consisted of steamed veggies. (i disliked steamed veg but soon grew accustomed to it. the body needed time to adjust from the heavy toxic processed food diet to a more natural one. in fact, liking vegetables took me a really long time! i trusted myself to cook tomatoes only in this semester)

acne vulgaris. it hurts me to see a passing stranger with this. feeling so horrible on the inside, being painfully self-conscious during social situations, thinking they dont deserve anything good that has happened to them. it hurts because i know they dont have to be like this. that there is a way out. i am so averse right now to processed / fried/ meat/ refined sugar/ wheat / dairy foods because i cannot torture myself by allowing my body to fight hard against countering these shitty poisons. there are ALWAYS other ways to socialize instead of "indulging" in "sinful" foods that crash the system shortly after. and now i feel that i absolutely cannot just sit there without saying something when i see my family doing harm to themselves. it's very hard to be passive when you know that being active can bring about some semblance of change.

a year ago, my blown-up self-made problems took over my life. now i feel i've made them diminish and life has been so fucking beautiful to me, i am actually amazed that i have missed out on all this shit for such a long time?!?!?! i appreciate and embrace my past self for leading me to where i am today.

1. the beach. so magnificently surreal. went there at an ungodly time of 3 pm (lunch) and cheryl and i stayed and talked til 5ish when we visited aboutlife (fav bondi food place along w earth to table) 

recently i've been talking a lot to myself and that really helps piece my thoughts together

2. i accessed some of my year-old videos and i noticed i talked a bit differently?? it was like a me yet it is not. 

3. let's always remember we have this empowering ability to think what we want to think. it's not other people's actions that repulse us, but how we think of them that does so. i realize (and this is so relatable in life) that everyone acts according to what they deem is right. honestly no one is wrong , it's just their actions in that moment in time might not have agreed with what we have expected of them to do. in the same moment though, that disagreeable person is doing something that he thinks is done out of good intention. 

and to think that in the earth's existence, somewhere in the timeline of life, maybe trillions or gazillions of years ago, this cave was once filled with ocean water. unimaginably, this cave is about a 1000m above sea level. but the earth is magnificent and we are but its small inhabitants. beautiful crystal structures take its time to grow from carbon dioxide and water and limestone and fffff this world is too beautiful. 

went to the jenolan caves at blue mountains today. breathtaking. it is at a constant temperature of 15 degs throughout the changing seasons!!! the cemented walkway was damp and slippery and claustrophobic. majestic to think that that is the only thing separating us and the vast unknown. 

the first solo trip of my life

1. i bought this book that melds buddhism and neuroscience together and i just thought it was perfect. it talks about how destructive thoughts come about and the powers of meditation- how it helps. i'm still at the first few pages but already it's a wealth of knowledge. my book of the trip （≧∇≦）

2. walked around melbourne city. today i explored the places the speechies didnt really go explore the last time we all were here. h&m? TOTAL HEAVEN!!!!!!! uuuuuuuugh totally worth my money and the venue itself is so gorgeous. it was the site of the first post office

3. met singaporean roommates, talked to them (they were so nice) and now i'm here, waiting for sleep to come 

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1. booked flight tickets to melbourne on a whim (^ー゜)

it is going to be a solo trip based solely on cafe visitations for every meal. i figured i should definitely explore the vegan side of the place since i didnt get to do so in april. im so so so excited. i booked a pretty airbnb for the days that i'm there too. i feel having an airbnb is the epitome of college travels. fingers crossed for a wonderful experience （≧∇≦）

this was what i was waiting for the entire exam period and it's finally here oh my goodness 

2. today's run was the first run in a few days... and i feel i'm finally getting stronger, less tired out over short distances. i pushed myself to turn back at the point in the path much further than i did for the rest of my runs, which was an achievement. exercising to remain happy and to block out the bad thoughts is far more effective than exercising to punish your body for the past 'wrongs'. today i breathed clean air and the chilly sunset wind was aaaaaahmeizingggg

(o^^o)

3. i had a double breakfast today 

it was mad planning on my part!! i had these breakfasts consecutively but i really was craving for sweet mangoes and hence the mango sticky rice. glad to have caught up with cindy after suuuuuh long. LAST TIME OF MEET UP WAS A SEM AGO??? year 1 sem 2 really flew by. it seems surreal that we've completed our first year :"(

just that these past few days have been rather distracting... a lot of phone usage 

sincerely and direly needing the holidays!!!! i envision my days spent running in the mornings and taking photos of breakfasts after that and looking for recipes to feed my family when they come here 

things to do like eating at my fav places (lol >:) )

going to places that tourists wouldnt go to 

maybe a picnic 

and defs a day at bondi with the sand sea and shades 

i like the idea that i am just an infinitesimal make up of this world. my thoughts are a significantly smaller part of this earth but how often do i let the self-centred problems of mine govern my life and restricted me from loving this world. problems seem so blown up in your mind but when you look up to the sky and the neighbouring massive buildings and think of the people in this world living lives- you'd just want to discard your thoughts and look outward 

stuttering exam aint got nothing on me

friday's gorgeous food spread （＾∇＾）

peiying recommended le monde cafe along foveaux road surry hills (i was relieved that i didnt get lost on my way there)

this was brunch with ruijia and also this was when i found out that she was a vegetarian!!! we talked about vego stuff and life here and brief conversations about tennis. we didnt talk at all in singapore before, except when we texted to arrange a friendly match betw tj and sajc. good vibes, really loving the typical aussie brunch fare. there'll always be that typical soft green avocado in the middle somewhere. 

and of course this beauty of a place in bondi junction. came here once to try the scrambled eggs and a cake but this time was different, i tried the ice cream too and it's alllllll sorts of amazing i kennut 

lol i remember how in pathlight days i'd always see this girl in the morning waiting for the same bus as me but i wouldnt acknowledge her because it was like 6am then we found out we were in the same camp group a few months later and then i realized she was going to usyd too 

then now we're just the people loving the vegan scene here (!!!!!!) she introduced me to this wonderful bulk foods place, like a co-op, in the heart of bondi junction. it's going to be my favourite haunt oh goodness