1. today was hanging around with family lots and there would ofc always be this stupid subconscious voice bitterly saying how i'm neglecting friends and i should rly have sum friends to go out with but see, it's just another absolutely unnecessary thought that is meant to be destroyed and never remembered!!!!!!! that's my mindset right now.
2. there was so much plant-based happening today, i'm overloaded with joy. for one, my mom decided that dinner should include roasted cauliflowers with tumeric because she likes it. and we had that and it was just the best thing ever (the food was good and the intention behind it was even greater). the kitchen was truly a sight to behold. it has always been kind of sparse and empty but today there was lots of good food and it seemed occupied- just how it is supposed to be. dinner was suuuuuuuuh good i had leftover brown rice yesterday and i tossed it with coconut oil, onions and leftover capsicums and cherry tomatoes and i had salmon because my mom bought beautiful chunks of it back from our ntuc trip today and she said it tasted rly good and it did taste amazeballez. i made like 5 or so batches of granola today. it's my xmas present to the family because i can't bear to send them store-bought foods that probably every other human does for every other human and knowing that big companies don't give a shizzle for the wellbeing of consumers irks me til no end and it's my way of fighting it and being fully dependent on myself is the better option. i still feel the need for action for the world to see that the only thing they need for sustenance is themselves & not food chains restricting them with only serving what they have on that menu and people only see the price of food/its description and based their choices on that but fail to consider maybe the way that the food was prepared or maybe in what condition that animal was when it was alive a lot of strong feels tbh not so much for being virtuous and saving animals but rly, the health of people consuming dangerous things.
3. i am grateful that i am able to hold conversations with my sis, my mom, my dad. i am grateful that i feel so free from my destructive thoughts because i am able to finally see the compassion in others and not just be focused on myself i feel like a whooping lunatic becoz i really do see the world with brand new eyes it's a world i've never actually seen before it's a whole new perspective it's a good one, definitely. it's a blessing.