Cory Monteith

Idk I still can't get over it. Maybe it was the influence of Finn's real squeaky clean image, but I cannot fathom Cory fighting and losing a battle against drugs and alcohol. And him w Lea they're so perfect

Fueled with raw emotion right now bc I just watched YouTube videos of Cory. His Ellen ones were... :'( It's hard to imagine all this happening

Ahhhhhh

Ok ok ok ok ok



i don't even watch glee much now, but this tragedy got me youtube-ing cory monteith interviews and moments and video diaries and songs. it's as if he hasn't left yet.
idk why it strikes a chord in my heart. i'm not ever one that pathetically mourns the loss of superstars. b/c they are stars which means they're far too distant for me to feel anything about them. amy winehouse had a tumultuous childhood which forebode her death. her previously publicized abusive use of drugs and alcohol made her passing somewhat unsurprising.
maybe i was unaware of cory's relation with drugs and alcohol. but this news hit me so hard. addiction is a problem and no one saw it coming (lea was caught off-guard). addiction is the problem and he succumbed to it, even though he had such a promising life and career ahead. my heart bleeds for him and all who knew him.
most of the fans knew him mostly by his onscreen character finn hudson who was sweet and pure and the guy that we all were rooting for. so many would have judged him based on their impressions of finn. it's quite hard to accept that he led a contrastingly different life from that he portrayed on the media. and maybe that's why i'm still not quite over this yet.
i think he doesn't deserve this at all. and big font articles that state "cory monteith dead at 31 at vancouver's fairmont pacific rim hotel on july 13" "intoxication of heroin and alcohol" seem mad unreal.
it was going to be so perfect if him and lea actually wed.
it has been three years that i've shipped finchel even when they weren't an actual couple. they weren't the most beautiful couple who graced planet earth, but they seemed the most genuine couple which made it 10 x more enduring.



there will still be a whole load of glee songs for me to cry to. ha ha ha
maybe i'm taking this all too harshly but i still feel unjustified that he gave it to his addictions too easily.

it's time to work on myself now.

Camping Style

Some cool friends I met during the 3D2N Pulau Ubin camp. 

Really mad intense stuff. 

*cue gay seal*

But yea, wasn't feeling the extra hyper campy spirit within me throughout the three days ⚡⚡⚡ A mix of unhygienic madness and taking the inner demons too seriously & not letting God-given courage show at all. Dayum. I was tasked to be the Emcee for the last day's lunch together w Jan and friend. (Sabo-ed by Jan herself!!!)

Anw they did a swell job as they were spunky and spontaneous, I really have a lot to learn from those two. There is great determination to improve myself in this aspect of public speaking. In retrospect, I'm glad I've had the opportunity to announce events to everyone in front of impt people...... Still've got lots to learn in the spontaneity part. Rly. ☝

Group 4 has been a nice bunch to be with. Glad to have Weiling, a fellow Pathlight intern with me; we carried planks, tent bags, day bags, 3 litres of water, air-dried damp shirts and walked long distances to different camp sites within Ubin. And kayaked. 

Her comments are epic-

"Do you know less people die from shark attacks than falling vending machines?"

And on the second night, (as with all lovely camps) we had the all-impt girl HTHT at Jan/Crystal's tent. Reminiscent of what we had during SLCamp ☺ Truth or Dare and all that messy details.

We ended off at Celestial Resort where we experienced a proper shower head since 2 days. Felt like an army recruit except I wasn't. 

But honestly, the purity in the hearts of the people I met here can be seen & that's comforting to know bc Singapore can be well taken care of in the future *fingers crossed*

And the guys can cook.... That was so unreal. 

So this was camp ☺

~

August will be a freer month:

That's for me. But I've a ton of people I still wanna see. 

& driving lessons too. 

Pre camp jitters

Going to Pulau Ubin on Wednesday and as usual, having the bitter feeling of dread. It has always been that anti-social feeling like I don't know anyone (and I guess I rarely don't) which is a total mood-downer. In reality, today was kinda great bc I finally got to catch up with Claire Lew and a new friend who sat beside me, Evelyn who is going to do dietetics in Adelaide. <sounds so fancy>

Age seems like it's catching up with me. All the people in the auditorium are supposedly nineteen. They all look so mature as if they already belong to the corporate world. And there exists a world where guys throw rubbish and take cutlery for you.

In essence, it's a whole new different environment but it is one that I'll have to get used to!!!

Camps are always terrible in the beginning but as it progresses, only the good memories of it are etched in memory. Like COALs and OAC back in Cedar. Right now I only remember campfire night and warm friendships.

I hope this will be the same too. Discovering oneself away from the buzz of civilian life. 

Ps

Monsters University with mummy, Ericca Luke and Iain last night. It was perfect. This is going to be a recurrent thing now. ☺☺☺

Love how excited the kids were and how cute they looked with their puffy jackets holding the popcorn with their small hands and sipping their drinks. 

I wish kids never grow old!!!!

Brenda's Nineteenth

We crashed at 5.30 am. This is an illegal picture of Bren and Jo.

 

I wiill miss her place so much, because next year will be different.

Next year I will have a wall (or two) of pictures of all the faces of lovely people. ☺ I will sip tea and chat with them.

That's kinda creepy. 

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Brenda played a good host

We played Taboo and Jolene was being cute and awkward it was hilarious. ☺☺☺

I like playing Taboo bc they've got words like cuddle, vibration and armpit.

Watched Youtube vids, talked and drank a little bit of woozy thingz.

It felt like one of those nights that just screams comfortable. 

We actually spent a good amount of time playing Taboo until we slept. Jo and I slept for 6 hours while the insomniac went to make bfast for the family.

They say I'll be tricked by possible tricky people, and I say no. Then again, what's a noob girl to know????? I mean, I can't deny the possibility that this might happen. I just hope it doesn't and my life doesn't get screwed when I'm away from Singapore. Life in Singapore may be a hell lot more stressful than it is in Aust, but it is a tad safer (?). No offense to fellow patriotic Aussies. Although it is probably due to the conservative nature of Sgeans that make it so..

On another page, the doctor was saying how if our ancestors didn't embark at singapore but traveled further instead to Perth or smth, and settled there, we would all be living in Australia w the beautiful weather, where toilet water gets flushed in a different direction (ok I added this)

Hashtag random facts that the doctor says.....

Imma be flouting the rules but here is the 

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Homey Saturday

My Saturday was spent doing this productive thing: 

I won't be celebrating my mom's as I will be in Pulau Ubin.... Having the camp of my life. Kind of dreading it b/c it might be OBS-ish and past camps didn't go too well with my system. Except the lovely people who suffered w me throughout the camp- as in the OALs. So anyway- Julia Rothman needs credits again. ☺ To meet her would be a dream ☁

Today we had Kim Moh's as a birthday celebratory dinner for her. Then the longstanding tradition of our family- the birthday cake ceremony. The little guys would sit in front of the cake and blow the candles out immediately once the birthday songs (in 2 languages) are over. Nate blew out raspberries along w a mild wind which sufficed to put out 3 candles out of 11. Iain did the finishing touches. 

I really do love those little guys. Nate dunked peanuts in his ice cold water at the dinner table and proceeded to place it in his Thomas the Tank Engine toy, pretending it was 'cargo'. Then emptying out the cargo into ah yee Angie's plate. ❤ Toddlers are only cute at three. 

The aunties were nice and told me about Taiwan!!! And Jiufen was a recurring venue, really makes me tempted to bring the rest there! I am now a full-fledged Taiwan traveler because I have a TW tourist map in my hands. Watch out world.

Watching Monsters University w the sister and hopefully Luke and Iain too. First time this ever happens but won't be the last. I must treat my family right before it's right to treat others nicely. That's kinda like my motto in life right now. It's time I love my family like how they deserved to be loved. 

Ps: am trying to recreate the post that got deleted. I forgot to mention how I miss the old times. And lament that everything has changed already.

I came across a series of pictures in an album that made me miss the past terribly. 

I can just cry- my post got deleted.

It has got a lot of stuff in it.... :-(

The gist of it is that I probably won't be posting in Swirlypinkmuffins often, because I don't feel comfortable keeping secrets. I feel that this blog is kind of a secret. I'd rather keep a paper journal (mine is flaky and in a sad state, though) or broadcast my every action through Instagram and Facebook. 

chunky chunks

1. jasmines birthday at esplanade w yiyin was lava lava lava-ly. ecstatic to be laughing at blog shop model-esque poses at the rooftop. rly special place (u.u) and my red velvet cookies which Luke, Iain and ricks helped me bake. They were so cute about it. Lukey was so distracted over the baking smells, his eyes constantly wandered to the expanding pink cookies (which is soft like cake). Identity crisis lah this batch. But ok the batter was brilliant!!! Smooth thick and luscious haha I would post a video if I could hoho

2. USS with Jes Jo and Ying Xin! Haven't met those poops in ages! Hi Jo I am blogging now- with less um criticisms HAHAHA. Ok coz people kinda find out that I'm this harshly judgemental girl in p6 from my diary confession..... Still feel terrible about this ok haha. Y'all can find my diary then sneak it and read it. I'm totez prepared for some slack jaw activity. YX running for the mascots in hopes to get a good pic (and mostly succeeding at that)

My mini melts ($7 OHELL it's worth it)

 

and how Jo and I walked along the New York portion and ate it nonchalantly/ juxtaposed w Jes and YX frantically taking pictures there. Saw the Joker who scared the wits out of YY hehe- that was like what, April?!?!

Marilyn Monroe, Betty Boop thinking Jes was a foreigner. This girl finally summoned her courage and told MM she was from *awesstrayyyliah*.

She bought it. 

Endless cylon and human rides to make the ticket worthwhile. Thanks a billion to Brenda for snapping up 3 tix for us!!! While she flies off to Europe; this is how you live your life friends. 

3. Birthday celebration tomorrow *confetti party*

4. Partial birthday celebration the day after *more sprinkles of confetti*

P.s: I managed to do italics on my iPhone!!!!!!!! Blogger app THX for the upgrade.

5. Today marks the day that I finally got rather comfortable at my new job. Manageable stream of patients and nice work colleague and happy, non-critical doctor makes for a good day. And also, driving. (I got the most patient, friendly, fatherly instructor whom i could make small talk with). Ashikin's reassuring text really worked for me as well. Quite thankful for her/ and heartbroken that she ain't working here anymore. There's a part of me that believes working at the clinic will help me in future.... But I don't feel super revved up for this job sometimes, bc of its intensity. And the fact that I might just kill someone w drug overdose or smth 

6. Current mode of travel for short distances: unarguably the bicycle!!! And I must share the hilarious stories that come attached with this bike. It's electric blue just like my game boy advanced sp (geek without the Tshirt), and it still has its sheen because it's relatively new beside the old bikes that I see, half collapsing revealing its rusty old gear chains and dirt- encrusted pedals. I've had 4 different incidents that include middle-aged/ elderly dudes admiring the bike...... In an uncomfortably creepy fashion, ie: the Bangla worker giving me the thumbs up sign with a wide grin when I cycled past him.... A slightly delirious old man who was hitting on my bike, the shop vendor at the Bedok bus stop saying I have a mei li de jiao ta che and telling me some Malay man glanced at it while I was away and snapped a photo of it.....

Hahahahahaha it's srsly amusing, the honesty of these people and their objects of um interest. 

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