Fueled with raw emotion right now bc I just watched YouTube videos of Cory. His Ellen ones were... :'( It's hard to imagine all this happening
Ahhhhhh
Ok ok ok ok ok
i don't even watch glee much now, but this tragedy got me youtube-ing cory monteith interviews and moments and video diaries and songs. it's as if he hasn't left yet.
idk why it strikes a chord in my heart. i'm not ever one that pathetically mourns the loss of superstars. b/c they are stars which means they're far too distant for me to feel anything about them. amy winehouse had a tumultuous childhood which forebode her death. her previously publicized abusive use of drugs and alcohol made her passing somewhat unsurprising.
maybe i was unaware of cory's relation with drugs and alcohol. but this news hit me so hard. addiction is a problem and no one saw it coming (lea was caught off-guard). addiction is the problem and he succumbed to it, even though he had such a promising life and career ahead. my heart bleeds for him and all who knew him.
most of the fans knew him mostly by his onscreen character finn hudson who was sweet and pure and the guy that we all were rooting for. so many would have judged him based on their impressions of finn. it's quite hard to accept that he led a contrastingly different life from that he portrayed on the media. and maybe that's why i'm still not quite over this yet.
i think he doesn't deserve this at all. and big font articles that state "cory monteith dead at 31 at vancouver's fairmont pacific rim hotel on july 13" "intoxication of heroin and alcohol" seem mad unreal.
it was going to be so perfect if him and lea actually wed.
it has been three years that i've shipped finchel even when they weren't an actual couple. they weren't the most beautiful couple who graced planet earth, but they seemed the most genuine couple which made it 10 x more enduring.
there will still be a whole load of glee songs for me to cry to. ha ha ha
maybe i'm taking this all too harshly but i still feel unjustified that he gave it to his addictions too easily.
it's time to work on myself now.
i don't even watch glee much now, but this tragedy got me youtube-ing cory monteith interviews and moments and video diaries and songs. it's as if he hasn't left yet.
idk why it strikes a chord in my heart. i'm not ever one that pathetically mourns the loss of superstars. b/c they are stars which means they're far too distant for me to feel anything about them. amy winehouse had a tumultuous childhood which forebode her death. her previously publicized abusive use of drugs and alcohol made her passing somewhat unsurprising.
maybe i was unaware of cory's relation with drugs and alcohol. but this news hit me so hard. addiction is a problem and no one saw it coming (lea was caught off-guard). addiction is the problem and he succumbed to it, even though he had such a promising life and career ahead. my heart bleeds for him and all who knew him.
most of the fans knew him mostly by his onscreen character finn hudson who was sweet and pure and the guy that we all were rooting for. so many would have judged him based on their impressions of finn. it's quite hard to accept that he led a contrastingly different life from that he portrayed on the media. and maybe that's why i'm still not quite over this yet.
i think he doesn't deserve this at all. and big font articles that state "cory monteith dead at 31 at vancouver's fairmont pacific rim hotel on july 13" "intoxication of heroin and alcohol" seem mad unreal.
it was going to be so perfect if him and lea actually wed.
it has been three years that i've shipped finchel even when they weren't an actual couple. they weren't the most beautiful couple who graced planet earth, but they seemed the most genuine couple which made it 10 x more enduring.
there will still be a whole load of glee songs for me to cry to. ha ha ha
maybe i'm taking this all too harshly but i still feel unjustified that he gave it to his addictions too easily.
it's time to work on myself now.
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