Bags below eyes.

I should probably live out my peedub project, since my family ties can't withstand even the blow of the Big Bad Wolf on the straw house.

"Remember what you came here for."

Unmasked.

Had an insightful conversation with Natasia yesterday whilst waiting for my mom to pick us up yesterday from N. My life would be shrouded in uncertainty and darkness if not for her talking to me yesterday, ha ha!


WTF I should stop failing in everything I do. More specifically, every test I take.
I don't wanna retain/ be last in class. Never again.

┌Enchanted┐

This is not China,
We ain't practicing censorship here---

FACEBOOK WHY AREN'T YOU WORKING. 

Definitely something more.

YY is forever funny!!!

She Was Nice To Me. :>

Aliah is the best dancer you can find.

V SEXY.

I love the girls.

I Love Delta, This Much.

So really, what's life after cheer?

Because some days stay gold. Forever.

I am very addicted to tumblr right now.
ryangasms, hahahaha.

How much you've changed since I last knew you. Leaps and bounds.
But I'll be brave, I will survive this although it's very hard and I'm missing people right now. Missing familiarity again.
Missing late night MSN convos that's random and chirpy.

Grah.
I remember how Mirna was so confident of what she said, about how we could do it and how good we were. At least that gives me hope. :-)
I remember the past when I respected whatever she said, because she's always right. Kind of missing those times now, and the paddle-pop jelly from opposite the holding school.

I feel like eating till no end. (IKEA cakes!!) And training tomorrow. I should sleep.
#homework woes.

Got to think now of the tough decisions. IDK what to do rn.

Delta Cheerleading 2011

I think we're the most special group of people with an even more special group of seniors with big and bottomless hearts who did everything they could to make it work for us. I'm so proud of Delta Cheer, omg. Although today ain't as emotional as it should be, and everything seemed so wrong and frightening at first, it turned out okay, and I'm so very extremely grateful for the encouragements from the HC people, and how Friday is so uniquely Delta, even if the whole world is singing to it.
Friday, spiked hair and peeling face paint left over from O Nite. :-)

My God; Amazing that we got this far; It's like we're chasing all those stars.

Thank you, Dee. A (post)card like that was really what I needed. ♥
{Black like Rebecca Black, ☻}

Let your mind take flight under velvet skies.

Dad's off again to Trinidad and Tobago for a week. A week but with all the Earth's rocking instability and crumbliness, I'm afraid.

I've grown tired of waiting.

I've grown tired of trying. I'm just waiting for tomorrow to appear in front of my very eyes.

I don't really have much to say, my brain is not working any longer. I can't hold onto my fight anymore.
Insecurities sh1t. So, I guess you have your problems, but I'm going to wait for you. I'd have to try.


I can't.

Why does everyone think that I can do it on my own??????? If this is what PW's like, I want to go back to Cedar and hide in my hole.

/edit.
Familiarity brings sanity back into my life. And I thought I was going mad crazy weird funky and dying.
Ashikin, Aerilynn, Brenda, Jolene; they were the most special people in my life once, and still are. Being myself with them just makes all the troubles seem to crease out nicely by itself, like a crisp ironed shirt.

I don't wanna study anymore, I want to cheer my heart out and play Tennis and salvage all the shards of the broken pieces of friendship and fix them.

I found you; thank you. I couldn't be more happy, really.
Courage is all you need. And love. And combined rainbows.


Thank you, Lord.

The Culture

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/03/20/fashion/20Cultural.html?src=me&ref=general

This is interesting and true. I love New York Times and the Times New Roman font.



{Battle wars with my inner demons.}

And the pendulum will swing with one foot in the prime meridian

KBox was an amazingly wild time. { :):):) }
I find it crazy hard to conc on acads now.

Circle me and the needle moves gracefully.

It's my happy thinking about OAL day. (L)

Discovering Rebecca Black with Sinhui, Sonya and then with the Delta team. They are a bunch of lovely, crazy people.

Egrets, not regrets.

Please don't make me have any throughout these two years, especially. I'm so scared.

Wish I could suck it up and stick for myself.
(Tennis vs. Cheer)

Here we go again;

If something is special, does it have to only be something that is amazingly and incredulously rare, so that when it actually does come round into one's life, it can be relished forever?

I never forget.

Finally uploaded the instax from SinHui after a week.

Chasing Pavements that Lead Nowhere.

We took sixish plates of these, ^^. Majorly proud accomplishment, the legacy shall remain.

Me loves my doubs partner!!

Happy Birthday, Jia En!

HAHAHAHOW

NEEDS SLEEP PRONTO.

Judging.

Anti-judging is so hard, I find. :(
Probably the reason why no one has a facebook event named a Year of Peace.


Hi, I wish you'd still remember me, the girl from your past.

Crinkles.

No small thing goes unnoticed. Small things make up my happiest days. Small things will be remembered forever. Small, precious things will be magnified in the hearts of those who feel the love.

+ Jon and Esther during cheerleading = da bomb.

"Our life is made by the death of others." Leonardo da Vinci

All We Know Is Falling

Hello, Dee,
I've read your tumblr and it really is #knives!!!! Just wanna tell you that everything's gonna be alright. You're gonna be fine and you can get through this as long as you set your mind and heart to things. It may not seem as if I care sometimes, and I'm sorry if it happens, but I'll care for you and make sure you survive this two years of asdfghjkl, in the bromance kind of way. Be strong, be strong and be strong, like really strong 'cos I know you can be, and Oh, I forgot to congratulate you on being the Cast in your drama production thingy!!! Friends can come in all difference (streams,) shapes and sizes. Hope you find happiness within your class as well ☼ ☼ ☼ ☼ ☼ ☼ ☼

OAC 2010

Today's the first of OAC back in Cedar. I can still remember what was ours like it was yesterday.
I miss OAC so much, I miss so much of everything.

Kimbo and Min crashing my house together with the Instructors, printing our proposals and sleeping in the cold.
Belaying, being strict, having fun together.
3I with Nat, Samenter and the Instructors. Oh gosh I miss Sam and her lucky cat pose and Nat and her perpetual blondeness.
I miss crying during the last of it all, I miss crying cos of all that we've been through.

And ours was the batch with the moving from the old school to the new one. Store checks and seven pm days aplenty.
I miss my monkeyoats and promised QM dates. I miss campcraft with ZH and HS and building tents and having refreshers. It's not so fun, but I still kinda miss the whole thing. Us as a board. We were good.

Post-storecheck was fun. Damn I'm going to miss storecheck so badly. N,S, I'll never forget that one and a half hours we stood outside the photo shop just so my photos can be loaded. Love you guys.

I wanna dance in the rain, and have long talks with Blubber again where we'll stone and talk with meaning, it'll be wonderful. And more dancing in the rain. And taking pics.

Sunday, March 14, 2010
OAC doesn't seem like it has even started yet. The ORR sleepover's as if it has not yet come. Last week, I was rushing, I was scared of the massive overload of information from the proposals, and now they are just nothing. Just meaningless files of documents that read OAC 2010 at the top.
So much things I've done that made me regret, and much love and reassurance that it's okay. I'll miss my Leaders 2010. Because we did it together and we made an impact on others. There's nothing much I could say. Only to awe at the amount of obstacles we've overcome. It really has been so tiring, the journey.
There's still so much they can learn and have to learn but I'm afraid to let them go.
Though you're sweet beyond expectations.

It still doesn't feel like the end. OAC has not started.
I want to belay until my hands burn with the friction of the rope.
I want to learn to light a solid fuel of a tommy cooker and cut the pineapple.
I want to sing campfire songs to my hearts' content and dance around the campfire with tears in my eyes.
I want to teach campers how to tie the bowline and watch forfeits.
I want to eat happy biscuits and bread with strawberry jam for breakfast, and fruit cordial.

Where are you now, Leaders of 2010? I miss you all so much.