Stayover aka happy December!

Pictures: forever the failed operation take picture with hazel without stepping on the mattress without making sound while getting some light in the picture
Can't remember what the exact stuff we laughed about were, but I should jot it down so I can read it in future hahaha
Triangle towel, post prom plans still half undone, bitch-mode jas, woke-up-at-4pm jas, diabetic YOLO pancakes juxtaposed w hazel's hollow bread sandwich, lazy Susan (srsly didn't know it was called that!!) to play wheel of fortune, motherly Jodi, trading phones for um...., frequent visitor of black couch, Everyday Chinese but eyes still quite big, even bigger than mine when I'm awake aka Hazel not Tan
And most importantly but least remembered. Bio. ☺☺☺ (turn the smile upside down)
Cannot wait to fill up the month of December with such days. Two more days to fill my head with knowledge

THIS IS AN EXCLAMATION

If you're free on Feb 26 2013 (Tues) and if you love Ellie Goulding like a lot and if you think Esplanade concert halls are plush and grand/ If you know anyone whom I can go on a concert with, text me???? ❤❤❤
Gonna make this the first concert of my life ✌ so so so eggcited

The last post on nostalgia

(Re)collecting memories. Really, remembering the past isn't good for emotional health. Maybe this is me; waiting for things to happen, like in the Chinese idiom about the rabbit falling in front of the lepaking hunter. Like um, things at first coincidentally worked well for you and you become happy. Then as time wears on, you depend too much on fate to help you put things into place that you don't rely on yourself on maintaining things as they are, as a result you get so mad at yourself you hole yourself up. You're so afraid of hurting your self pride that you build a fortress around your heart so that entry is refused for anyone who tries. And the fact of life is that sometimes, people will live their life so it sucks if you're not in it as much as you yourself want it to be.
As we live, the past events get increasingly tenuous as more important things start to come in. But why did I choose to feel to put this in my highest regard? I'll probably regret doing so. I (had to) look through our entire Facebook conversation, because the worst thing that happened was I actually dreamt of stuffs last night.
I hope that soon I will just forget this ever happened. Or maybe start on a new page.
I don't want to go back to nostalgia to cherish the moments. Maybe I should lay off writing in the paper diary as a reminder to myself to make more happy times as opposed to reveling in the past.
Come post As, I will not stay cooped up at home
I will make my life worthwhile
I will find something better to do
I will impact people's lives
I will buy many things
I will shop at Q00 Market
I will attend fashion buffets because they seem very worth it
I will lay off Twitter (crossing my fingers ✌ and my heart ❤)
I will not degrade my r/s with my family any longer this is rly stupid and pathetic why did I even want to do this to myself I rly miss talking to my cousinssss and now it's just shet awkward forever plus now my baby cousins are at the peak of cuteness (age 3-5) and As made it feel like crap for me I feel bad if I ever leave the house because idk this is my mentality so I'm and was basically being a hermit in my abode, many a times under my blanket. Yes I'm blaming my life's problems on a few stupid national examination papers what more later in life in uni and in the working world. And poopdeck. I don't even feel like I've made any great strides in my progress to achieving good grades like I should have. Ajdjsjakalwj

Here is my silent revolution (it has been silently happening). From now onwards I will stave off the wooden block of awkward and all things detrimental to my human relationships with others, stop hating on others, stop being ever so spiteful because it's annoying, run everyday (I demolished 3 pancakes with caramelized banana, strawberries and syrup while being awkward at the same time at Baci just now fml- and demolished is the exact word my Godma used heh)
Fff I do not care this life will not suck anymore than it already has. Please God let it be so.
If anyone has got any radical resolutions then let's achieve it tgt and ASAP!!

Jack Frost

Fell in love with a fictional character and an animated one at that, ❤ sigh at our lives. Was a lil bit apprehensive about watching animated again too cuz I didn't watch a movie in eons x millions, but Rise of the Guardians was MAD CUTE. So I guess it was ok
And I didn't punch Jas' eyes out like I had wanted to (to get the tear ducts flowing)
Went with Jas Jodi Joy (triple Js) (but no I don't address them as that in real life) Esther Charmay and HT & scouted good shops after that.
Felt bad after breaking my more than many months long abstinence from fast food- holy moly I consumed a chicken burger and now I feel like the fats of the chicken and the blistering friedness of cancerous death have manifested into a gargantuan bulge called my stomach.
IKR but as a famous person once said, "yolo sia".
It's a good feeling that As is finally ending after that month long torture, but in terms of outcome.... Chem MCQs were crazy below expectations. Although as a general statement to everyone, I'll say: hope the papers were well so far. Bio is up next though and we all love love love bio, I guess.
With abated breath I look fwd to more good moments post A levels have to offer.

Sheets I have to hold my breath for one more week dayum.

The lone pic of the day heh☺

No.45

To talk. And to talk a lot.
Talk late into the night
Sleepovers just to talk
Sit on swings, cycle down slopes and laugh
Go for night runs and talk
To stop living for the phone
To find cafes between the crevices that no one else would find, read and talk aplenty
To sit beside the fountain and eat Taiwanese street snacks in between shopping, and talk
Shop shop shop up down left right gna spend bucks and omalawd I can't think about this anymore I'm not oppressed I'm not oppressed I'm not oppressed
Nine more days baby
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C'mon now just survive and enjoy later please

Stuff in my drawer over 2012

Ok that prev post's promise is so invalid

Ever since after biop3, which was circa 5hours ago, I've got a glimpse of the totally liberated life. Quite uneasy and can you believe it I actually feel a tad guilty!! But I recharged my iPod ready for a jog, my shoes are pleading and my mind has been yearning to be out and about!! Excited. Doing so with Jodi and Bren. ☺
Guys I've decided that I only do exercise dates because I don't wna be dripping w/ mainstream juice and going to nice places, taking pictures of good food then consuming them. I'd rather someone else do it for me heehee!!!!
Ok since somewhere along the road I've decided to take a new outlook on life; the appreciatin and no hatin road. Instagram's not working and it's the reason why I'm here ☺☺☺
Ecstatic that plans are almost falling into place! And I pray for things to be even more brilliant.???
Fingers crossed

Update\
Not surprisingly, I have an aversion towards twitter (o m g). I'm probably going to leave it for a while, I guess? And Instagram too, although I can't believe I've missed out so many pretty things in these short months. Really, short months actually.
Only two ✌✌✌✌✌ more weeks to go before all hell breaks lose and so do the emotions! The only way to go now I guess, is to savor this period- in a non-sadistic manner. I need to break out of this cycle with which I feel suckish in my abilities, yet do nothing about it, and then proceed to feeling down in the doldrums because my former classmates accept scholarships and early admissions into universities. Genuinely wonder if I can actually get smth Done with this life of mine. Buck up Rebecca buck up
Plus to let my mom and pops down would be... Just a terrible thing I mean they really try- and today she was just saying how proud she was of how we turned out & everything. Nooooo

Manifestation of unproductivity all around me

Okay two more weeks seems dreadfully long, but then again it's such an important time & then yet again, it's tough to keep up the momentum especially during this period, when all the notes don't seem to be of use any more. And post As happy moments.
Burden MCQs. Burden!!!!!!!!1 Wet blanket to happiness. Party pooper of freedom. Fuel to the fire of torture.
Rly rly rly can't wait for the trip to New York I love me some airplane trips ✈
And I shall promise not to be unproductive anymore from this post forth until 3 Dec. It's mad that national exams should stretch into the December period really. *Sacred holiday time*

If you are ending As soon then congrats for making it to the end! Never thought this day would come right? (Almost) made it. ✌

P.s: I have 43 things to do on my post As list and redoing my blog templates is one of them and asdfghjkl I have once again proved myself a wimp by giving into temptation so easy.
P.s.s: it's fun to choose the colours and colours and more colours.
Nighty

change yourself then change the world.

So irked again by productivity levels. This sucker is not resting her head on her pillows tonight man.
Caught The Voice 3 since it's always on AXN but the entire world is watching the X Factor heh ✌ Just learnt that De'borah wasn't saved and I'm super upset about that cos she actually has the voice and she actually manages to convey her emotions through her style of singing
And she's mega x100 unique
And I think she's suited for real life perfs cos her stage presence is really magnificent wowow

Ten more 24 hours to kill before I can get out of the house and not watch tv anymore cos tv makes you die younger. Omg scary. Make yourself proud of what you worked for for so long. Fingers x

Omg hi an update on my (digital) life

This can not be a happier day. But I gave myself 2 pages of reasons on why I shouldn't be on twitter. Hm

God knows it's the only way to heal now

Why can't I do a paper and feel proud of it thereafter? Sigh Lord.
My Blood by Ellie Goulding (Halcyon) is my new ear candy. I like songs that are empowering and I can dramatically sing along to when I'm bathing / at home.
Econs and Bio. ☔

After math (I deserve a +10 for this pun)

Ok update: apparently hazeltjy tweeted it too haha this is too sad but shows that humour runs in humus.
Yet another pun ☺

An inextricable happiness(?) of sorts:
Sleep-inducing weather. The cool winds before a good shower.
Read an interview piece on Tong Yee on straits times & it's really good. I rmb Yannis telling me about him last year (the pro-est gp tuition teacher) and coincidentally I went for a gp crash course last year taught by him. Embarrassingly I didn't use anything I learnt oh sheet.. BUT YEA. He retained and didn't have that good everything record one would've expect from a guy like him but his values and strong desire to help Singapore in the whole social progress goal was ultimately what made him successful. And he has a rly good sincere heart. I guess the bottomline is- always stay loyal to your values and get a goal and extinguish procrastination and don't want something w/o acting on it. Yeah ☁ was/ am quite inspired by his actions. (Straits Times opinions pg33 or smth)
0.25 done with As
Enticing post-As schedule

Must not steer away from impt current things though. Fingers ✌
Trudge on

/edit
Tomorrow will be a much better day. Period. The rate I'm doing things: negative. Yeah I believe sometimes I'm reversing. Like those tapes that go squiggle squiggly and people move backwards and talk in incoherent chipmunk

Hi As

A day has passed and I'm wondering where did the time go to (every damn time). I guess chem has taken the brunt of my laziness but I truly wish tomorrow brings enough hours to consolidate all the info. If chem were to be as crazy killer as hurricane sandy like last year's horror, then idk. I will be sad.
I don't know if it's the same with you, but there's always this blurry demarcation between studying for GP and just surfing the net. I should have been asleep two hours ago... ✌
I really yearn to get out of the house. Not that this is a bad house, just that so much negativity breeds in the empty lumen of my brain network. And essentially because I cannot understand myself as yet. Which is kinda muddling 'cos year 20 will come in a blink and I thought only teens have this issue of finding their identity and stuff.
The title seems pretty benign but yea, As shouldn't be terrifying because then you can perform well. ☺
I daren't write anymore I'm always afraid my level of readiness that I present will always have karma coming and presenting me w substandard grades. Ok I'm afraid.
God bless everyone
On a separate note, it feels gratifying to know that lives still intersect like circles of the Venn diagram even through weathering caused by time.

(Ps: musing from my old blog, pre-Os