~*magic*~

• i am a hardcore fan of oats/ nut butter / banana anything; breakfasts are like that (5eva)!!!! i'd wake up the earliest and sneak into the kitchen so i dont disturb the others and assemble my breakfast and savour it as the sun rises (~7am) idk i guess it is something i really do love to do here, it keeps me grounded and sane (& most importantly, filled for the rest of the day)

• i feel like i've grown a lot ????? well at least now i do laundry and vacuum my room which is unheard of (i myself am still not really sure if i am me aka just-roll-about-in-mess person)

• i gave out brochures at newtown station for the vegan festival!! the passerbys were nice and most of them smiled so that was unnerving and helped me do my job with more positivity. one younger girl took it and was like "why is your entrance fee $47?!?" in a joking way and i just laughed and pretended to be sympathetic when i'm secretly relieved i get to go in free (hahahaha *douche syndrome*)

• i sat down for a cooking show by a talented chef of sadhana kitchen:

(they were selling coconut meringues on tues and i hurried over after school so i could get a slice)

so anyway the chef explained how she was a pharmaceuticals salesperson before opening the cafe and that itself made me SOSOSOSOSOSO inspired (to do the exact same thing oh my) bc being a chef for a raw food cafe- in sydney the mecca of raw foods- would be amazing because you can access things so easily and mingle with other enthusiasts about recipes and the like 

i actually think i'm still quite clueless as to what i'd like to do in my life...... i think there are a lot of passion(s) to be discovered 

• having said that, i think speech pathology here is interesting. like i finally understand when uni flenz say how you get to study the things that interest you and that is what pushes you through the course- i feel that!!! i especially like psychology because it is relatable to life as me the 20yo knows it, albeit it being a lil vague (lecturer) ((1000word essay on what depression is))

it's still nice to read how the mind perceives things and how much we've grown (as mankind) to understand ourselves. 

• i am still in a fuddle as to how to properly spend my time feeling less stressed heh idk (;- ;) i worry myself into making sure i put in the added effort for readings yet insta + snapchat put me into perma-procrastination mode 

precious hours trickle by and i am super aware of it yet sometimes i'm just passive and let it pass thus i get worried again 

but i read a quote on twitter today "dont worry too much, it doesnt get the future job done and you fail to appreciate the present"

um so like um um yyyyar baby steps for self-improvement 

& it's late <11:43 ikr> so i will leave this space half-heartedly ❤️gudnaits❤️