sputnik

been:

• reading short girls; i think it's a chick lit book + a light read. read sputnik sweetheart and if anyone understands the story please help me i cannot comprehend??!!?!?
• cutting the cravings i hope it lasts. it's been ages since i had my last friends meal but it feels better that i am more in control of my food intake. anti-social behaviour up ahhhhh
• wanting to get a bike but not sure if i should just settle for a cheap one from giant or a durable bike from those ancient shops
• pondering about the future
• thinking of how to live differently
• gymming according to hweemin's schedule and remaining sloth-y for the rest of the time hoooooooo
• signing up for *yoga* with *jasmine* hahahahaha really excited for that one
• off instagram & twitter for the sake of my emotional health (hur hur hur)
• sleeping at 6-8 pm, save the days i slept at 11 to make a scrapbook
• adding more cinnamon into breakfast oats (!!!)
• eating mangoes all day every day -asian fruits for asian coloured skin hehe-
• thinking of blogging but haven't been doing so until now.

before continuing i'd like to say a big thanks x infinity to paige for the wild honey date and then to paris baguette where there was 4$ royal pudding in the cutest jar, and some friggin amazing layered cake (what was that called?) and lots of talking until late. and of course her reaction to some news hehe i won't forget that ok. i'm going to wear the birthday socks as soon as i see it popping out of the washing machine. lots of thanks for your endlesss support and great conversations whenever we meet

some super amazing wrap with potatoes at the side, and cheese and veges in the wrap. *million dollar description right there*

some pretty good looking food and girl!!!

• seeing the tennis girls for -admittedly- the first time since a long time ago. the nationals have ended with their last match against njc on home ground. i think a lot more challenges beset them this time around but it's heartening to see the girls grow up and with each other. being in tj to visit them brings back fond memories of last year: japanese egg bowls for food filler at 10 am, getting released early from class, talking strategies at the lunch table, noobly getting ready for the competition and taking care of the team, two senior girls & a lot of junior girls, being really tanned from being in the sun from 10 am til end of match, the satisfying pop sound from opening a new tube of competition tennis balls, the nerves brought about by the service of the opponents and of everyone watching as they held their breaths, cupcakes brought by cheryl one day, floods of pictures, chilling at the sports complex which provided temporary respite from the merciless heat. the company that made the journey memorable. and the gossips that always happen at the dinner table which makes me miss being in school so much b/c things are just that relatable.
• sending charmaine off to thailand the other day. the imminent feeling that this day will come yet not having a proper f2f conversation leaves me regretful, but then there's always the silver lining of her returning during the holidays. makes me wonder how leaving this little homely island will feel like.
• scolding the kids more ((heh heh)). the best day was when teacher was absent for supplementary class and hweem was tasked to go w me to support my own class. she said i told them off like nothing but i thought i reasoned w them firmly idk that's my style....

throughout this time here, i firmly believe that the children should be strictly disciplined for their own good. it's kind of a necessary evil b/c if they get pampered too much and always get what they want just by throwing a good tantrum then what about in future when they can't get their own way? i had a conversation w a teacher who said that yes they're a lot smarter than other children. sometimes all they need is a dedicated, firm teacher to set them on the right path and hopefully their behaviour will change. but of course since autism is a spectrum, it is hard to decipher which child can or cannot be taught in this way. can't really find the right words to put this properly. all i know is that i feel quite strongly about this. there should be changeeeeee

i'm quite grateful for my class. i have learnt that the jolokia pepper is the spiciest in the world (one kid rated eating it as 3 out of 5 on the anxious chart, as if he has come across it bfr in his life, when others simply wrote taking exams or not finding their favourite game as an anxious situation). love how they think coz they make this world more colourful. they've given me lots of perspective as they view things so differently, it's kinda cool. haven't been blogging about them bfr but omg only five more weeks with them and the days just seem to be flying past so quickly.

today i shall be trudging on the road to clean eating. going grocery shopping w mummy and making it official that i will make my own dinners. no more catered food!!!!!! be fitblr-esque and tolerate love avocado and poached eggs on toast and whatnot.

oh yea and first practical lesson last sunday. soooooo tough to manoeuvre the feet and hands and mirrors and other cars and pedals and argh the next day i had a nightmare that dad forced me to drive the car in total darkness.
the other day i dreamt that one kid joined delta cheerleading and i threw something at him and asked him to go away hahahahaha
last night i dreamt that i tried to help my cute kid find his favourite game: naruto shippuden ultimate ninja storm 3 (true fact) at some gaming shop and it turned out to be an imitation