just seem like a lot on the shoulders. not been sleeping well, feeling crud all the time and so scary, i've begun to be so scared of you, i can't really look at you the same way any longer.
tried to explain it to jodi who was a blessing to have to listen to my rant which carried on in a roundabout, not going anywhere/ ended up at where i started, but then we talked about tennis/soccer then everything was oxygen-potassium.
everyday at home it'll just be muted conversations, glancing looks and isolation in my room. i'm beginning to think... idk. it's quite hard to live by. and just, in general. i'm tired of trying hard, i want to have a good draw for this round, (at least, we can't give up without first kicking their asses, states the theory of evolution.) my shots are crazy out sometimes, i don't even comprehend.
i'm convinced that i'm losing myself slightly, losing who i was, being confused, thinking too much, avoiding problems. mmm kay maybe i just need a talk hahahaha.
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