stop stop stop

to my mind: idk what schizophrenic act you're putting me through, but i've had enough. i'm done!!!!!!! i can't make healthy choices only in daylight and come nightfall, revert back to my old eating habits noooOOOOooooooooOOOO i've come damn far and i cannot will not must not ever let myself down by binge eating like shit / getting triggered by the sight of food in the house i cannot. it's not a dietary restriction, it's a very strong and opinionated lifestyle choice.
it is not a dietary restriction bc science says that if you are restrictive, then there'll come a day when you go overboard w the junk food.
so i am typing it here as a promise to myself, and all the readers here as witnesses to this promise:

• i will never touch processed sugar because after a few tough battles lost w food recently, i've noticed that the more i eat sugary things, the more unhealthy food i crave and there is really a lot of obstacles in my house this is a friggin war (mind vs conscience) i'm losing and it is hard to keep fighting on so- no bad things for me!!
• if you fail to plan you plan to fail. i think meal preppin is the ultimate essential tip to all of clean eating
• cleaneating2014 i want this, i really do, actually.

what happened today was that mummy brought back cakes the amount equal to that of the catering at the chalet (lulzerz!!!!!!!) n yup i was like no at first and i did!!! i did stop myself...... only to let it go afterwards.

this food relationship is seriously balls. :c maybe it's bc i m alw at home???????? maybe sydney-time will get me distracted w the more important stuff..

did you know saying vulgarities makes you drive your points across and shows that you are a passionate person ha ha ironically while others might want to stay away from the foul mouth,

i would like it very much to be one. 

fufuu