i am so very grateful for friends who open up their souls and expose their vulnerability to other people. yesterday was kinda super amazing for me bc the talk made me realise how much the girls have grown in wisdom and love (it sounds stupid but i believe every word of it). i actually was really motivated to change my life or how i viewed it. i've always viewed it wrongly. i always compared my quality of life to others and coerced myself to feel inferior. now the path is clear and i know that if i want something i'd better pull my shit together and go all out for it. what is the use of complaining about how sucky your life is but you don't make even a morsel of effort to change yourself 

sometimes i do fall back into my old ways and old self. i think i do it to feel familiarity, or maybe just a huge tendency to cling on to the past. well damn it, rebs something has got to change already. 

anyway i am just in utter amazement and respect at the raw maturity that yy and zh have (i'm hoping you read this so you know) 

i do think people who make you a better you are seriously worth keeping. and i think it is gratifying to know that some of these people do exist if you look hard enough/ more sensitive to the personalities of others

i'm making moving to syd a huge deal as if all contact i have will be lost but fu•• i will miss singapore and its people so much!!!! especially so after this sleepover 

✔️ four of us slept on two conjoined single beds

✔️ we played chubby kueh balu the failed sister of chubby monkey (max 2 kueh balus)

✔️ i was sabotaged in slapjack so i had to drink lots of a toxic mix of bacardi + coke it was so harsh so harsh

✔️ i bought 5 bananas and for the last one, it was wrapped nicely in my plastic bag but it was mushed up. my hands unknowingly rested on it 

✔️ no flickering of lights like in hong kong, just melancholic songs to fit the mood of some parts of the conversations

✔️ 7-eleven twice the night. yy was really drunk anw we sung yellow by coldplay while walking on the road. i was angry at a speeding car

jasmine and i woke up at 10 and met jieshi for like a huge feast of totally no occasion (it was a marvellous spread tho):

standing sushi bar (no sashimi party today)

llaollao (makes js happy + jas emotionless)

brownice (makes me happy)

so happy to have seen this hweemin with her natural facial expressions. first time she ever slept so hardcore on public transport. we alw sit 24 from pathlight to bedok and even so it wasnt like this, maybe i was talking to her too much

we went to bedok mall ntuc like the grocery mamas that we are. ☺️ i meet her in the randomest of places so it's really lovely. 

• when i was running along upp east coast

• taking the train 

• taking the train

• nus sci canteen 

probably there's some magnetic---

i am too tired to think of a nonsensical theory