in lists;

food item of the day

• sleeping at 10pm/ wake up at 5am/ still dying

• sstressed 24/7 because of seriously different character conflicts (although it ain't a conflict). i jreally understand where she's coming from, & i can see what's going on around well bef/after school hours ((trying hell lots to make it as vague as possible) idk where to go. the fault in my star alignments caused my unfortunate luck and what-nots. sometimes idk what to do. thankful for everyone who listens + upper pri track yfas who take up a cafe lunch table talking about our experiences.
• qiuxuan + audrey + huiling + hweemin for helping me to cut paper leaves and stick velcro- the process  was just so much more efficient with 5 pairs of deft ladies' fingers!! -and i'm inserting keeblers into my orifice. darn negating all the lost calories-
• love my class bcoz they're cute although i'm not allowed to speak of their adorableness or act like they're adorable
• mom for a listening ear; past and present happenings.
• hweemin who outburst like two x into my ear. at least she held the umbrella at least she updated me from the december week's induction happenings until she almost barfed coz of motion sickness hahah thanks hwee.
• i really appreciate affirmations. like even the littlest ones. though sometimes i think it's really the littlest that means the most? those subtle ones where people don't do it because they're trying to be nice, but out of their genuine care for you. idk, that's really something to hold on to.
• what if i start to get interested in cognitive science///// i have to go
• hi xy i read catchthcloud and the "if you’re reading this you’re one of them" bit made me feel thankful too; it was only a few words but at the moment it lifted up my spirits, kinda. oops this is not melodramatic
• i kind of wished our class was mega tight too but rly,,,, expectations ruins a hell lot. idk quite melancholic to think about. then again it would be so wimpy to live like it didn't impact me <more than 4m did>
• debs/jes meet up. felt like i was acting a total b* (but that was just one moment) the other were lies and i hope you don't misconstrue. really great time, of course. everything's the same, hair colour different only
• idk why i treat different humans differently. not good for surviving social situations.
• feel changed
• ran and therefore i thought
• stupid thoughts
• i won't be a wimp